Thursday, February 19, 2009

Unsettled

Why is it the weather has such an effect on peoples moods? It sure does get to me. It's one of those days where it's just cloudy and dreary outside. No rain/snow, but maybe some snow showers. It started snowing early yesterday afternoon, then later in the evening was turned to a mix and then to rain. Well, I don't know what it did after I got home. I didn't go to bible study not wanting to take a chance with the weather by finding it slippery afterwards. I didn't get a call saying they cancelled it, but I don't always get a call. So, I spent the night working on my class and taking breaks by playing on the computer. Hubby called me and told me that the oldest had to work this morning. Now, hubby didn't know I was off today and wanted me to drop the oldest before work. I had no intentions of getting out of bed before I was ready this morning, lol. So, I had to tell him I was off and why. So, he wanted the oldest around 11 am. That I could handle.

It seems to be taking forever to get through this next chapter for this class. It's a huge chapter and seems to be so much work. I spent quite a few hours on it last night and just don't feel like I've gotten anywhere with it. I've looked ahead and the next few aren't as long as this one. I'm beginning to feel like it will be summer before I get through this one, lol. Then again, if I didn't have so many interruptions, I might feel like I'm getting somewhere!

Tonight is knitting night and I've decided that I don't want to go. I really don't have anything started. I have something I want to start, but just not in the mood for it yet. What I want to work on I haven't found a pattern for that I really like. That unsettled mood is kicking in again :) But, I really just want to spend some time with hubby tonight. Not that I get much when he's working, but a little is better than nothing right now. I think if hubby goes to India next month I'll go out of my mind. This is like he's gone to.

After I dropped the oldest off at work we went to walmart only because I had to pay on the credit card. I had a few things I wanted to pick up and finally remembered to bring 2 of my watches to have the battery replaced in them. I have lots of watches and only one that is still working. So, I'll try to take them 2 at a time over the next few months so when the batteries go, the won't all go at once. Whatever happened to the wind up watches?? I wouldn't have that problem now if they were still around. So much for new and improved. Since I was already in that horrible store and I needed printer paper, I decided to look for the other things I needed. Actually I was just pricing them, but they were actually cheaper. I was surprised, but since I spend as little time as possible in there, I wouldn't know. But, I'm thinking, maybe, just maybe, getting some of the food items I have to go to the supermarket in town for, might be easier on the food bill. I bought 4 cans of black beans, 2 cans of healthy choice soup, 2 bras, 2 packs of paper, and a large container of instant oatmeal and spent 25.00. For me that was cheap. I seem to never walk out of there without spending at least $80.00 or more. I did price the cereal and some I can get cheaper, but if I'm in the area, I might pick up what I can't get at my favorite grocery store.

Well, that was my break from class, so guess it's time to see just how much more I can get accomplished this afternoon. May as well spend my time wisely, lol.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Frustration, and prayer request

Just got a message from the dentist office that, yet again, they have to cancel my appt for tomorrow. This has happened so many times I've lost count. So, now I have the whole day off and basically for nothing. It's not like I can call work and tell them I can work since I've put in for this time off 3 weeks ago. It's just really frustrating that I've waited so long, only to have to wait even longer. I rescheduled the appt for next week. I'll just have to leave right after work for the appt and the oldest, well, he's on his own as far as getting himself to work that day. There's nothing else I can do and I really need this to be finished. I was so looking forward to a full set of choppers, it's been so long I probably have forgotten what that will feel like, lol.

Normally I don't talk about my work, but in this case I will. I've debated about putting this out there but the more I think about it the more I think this family needs all the prayer they can get right now. A few weeks ago the teenager wanted to go out with friends after school and was told no. The kid did it anyway. Cops were called and the teenager was found. Teenager refused to go home and threatened to commit suicide if forced. Teenager ended up in psych ward. I do know it wasn't long. Teenager went to school on Monday and told everyone what happened. My kids came home from school telling me about this teenager. The woman who works with me told me the next day what the teenager did because she told her. Knowing all this I question the teenagers threat. Earlier this week the woman who works with me was supposed to work all day the day I was off. It was a holiday and the teenagers mom was off to. The woman I work with was called in the morning, before starting work, that she wasn't needed. There was an incident with the teenager. Well, we both kind of figured because of the removal of some things in the home. We asked the teenagers moms boyfriend about the teenager and he told us the teenager was with a friend for a few days. This is what caused the "incident." Again the teenager was told they couldn't do something. Again I question. Regardless, this situation needs to end. The mother has enough stress in her life with out this too. So please keep this family in your prayers.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Dull Monday

Not really much going on around here today. The boys slept in this morning, so did hubby. I had a 10 am hair appt, so I had to be up and moving.

Hubby was telling me last night he wants to go to the city when the cousin he works with, (the fool)
comes back. I told him to have fun, lol. I really have no interest in going to the city. He wanted me to drive. I told him no way! I don't drive in any city where the parking spaces are only 4 inches long, and all the streets are 0ne ways, the opposite direction you want to go in, lol. He suggested the train, again, have fun. I wouldn't mind taking the train into the city, except he wants to shop before he goes to India. Do I really want to carry bags and bags into store after store , through the city and then on the train?? Um, no. So, I told him to call one of his friends to see if he would come get him and the oldest and take them into the city. I'm sure this guy will. He's young, in his early 20's and just loves to drive. He's shown up at the station at 10 at night to spend time with hubby and then driven back to the city after a few hours. Crazy. Or I'm just getting old.

Don't know what I want to spend the rest of my day doing. Cleaning is not an option, not with the boys home the rest of the week. Why bother. I should work on my translations for the next class, but, not really in the mood. Might reread the past chapter, or not. Might go over the sermon from Sunday. The elder that preached this past Sunday tends to jump all over the place and I end up mainly concentrating on what verse he's reading and just jotting things down I want to go back over later. The other elder picks a book and goes through it. This one picks usually a person, this month it's David. I never realized just how much David is mentioned in the Bible until I started looking last night. Wow. But since I know that's what he's going to be covering, I like to read a little beforehand so I have a clue about what's going on. I haven't read my Bible much in the past. Since I've been going to church regularly and started Bible study, and this class, I'm reading it more often. There's just so much I either don't remember or just don't know.

The women in the church are going to a conference in May, around mother's day weekend. I've known about it in the past, but never went. This year I'm thinking of actually going. I think it would be good for me to just do this for myself and be around other Christian women. I talked to my mother about going with me. She figured my father will say no, since he will have to stay at my house while we are gone. She was telling me he's still passing out so she doesn't let him go anywhere alone. He still refuses to tell the doc what's happening and she won't tell his doc either. Well.......... But, I think I'm going to go either way. I've already talked to hubby about it and he's ok with it, either with or without my parents. One thing about hubby, he respects my religion. He doesn't understand it, but he won't ever refuse me anything concerning it. I haven't tried to change his mind, but we do have talks about my religion and I'm thinking maybe the best way to show him about my religion is to try to lead by example. He's questioned me about Jesus before and at first it just kind of threw me because I grew up in the church and hearing about Jesus was just normal. Then I realized where he comes from, this is all new for him. He's never heard about Jesus. I found that hard to imagine. But he does have a Bible in his language and he will go to my church when he can, so. That's a start anyway.

I was listening to the weather and possibly more snow for Wednesday into Thursday. I'm hoping for the rain. It depends on the temps and the track of the storm whether we get snow, a mix or just rain. Guess it's safe to say we're going to get some form of precipitation? Anyway, I have my last dentist appt on Thursday . I made this appt 3 weeks ago. I would hate to have it cancelled and wait another 3 weeks.

Hubby's at work and won't be home now until Friday night. The cousin, (the fool) drove hubby's truck supposedly to a friends house, was going to leave the truck there and then him and the friend were going to the airport together. Another relative was supposed to bring the truck back to us. Well, the fool left on Thursday and we have yet to see the truck. It was supposed to be back over the weekend, now it's sometime this week. Since hubby has to be at work at noon and I'm working at noon, hubby has no way to get to work. He has to stay in the apt upstairs until the weekend when I'm off. This is not sitting well with me. This is so not fair, to me, to us, to the kids. The fool screws hubby over all the time and hubby just lets him get away with it. I so want to step in, but it's not my fight and I would probably get ignored anyway. So, I'm trying to explain to hubby that it's ok to do for people, but when they start to take advantage and screw you, it's time to stop. I don't know if he gets it.

Guess that's about it. Need to find something to occupy myself with, lol.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

What better way to spend a Saturday night

Than in front of the computer. That's how I'm spending my night. Nothing interesting on tv so thought I would catch up on journals.

Well, I've been reminding hubby and reminding hubby about today being Valentines day, and well, he forgot. He blamed it on the flower guy who usually is in front of the station the weekend of certain holidays, like Valentines day, Christmas, etc. Hubby has things worked out with him. He gives hubby an extra big bouquet of roses and hubby gives him free food and drink. Not a bad exchange. Don't know what happened to the guy today, or yesterday. Anyway, that was hubby's flimsy excuse. I had asked him for money this morning because I wanted to go candle shopping. The power was out so long, I burnt a lot of my candles down. He gave me a significant amount of money, more than normal for him. I asked him about valentines day and he told me I had to buy my own flowers and card, he gave me money. Needless to say I wasn't happy and I told him I wasn't buying my own stuff. Even the boys were mad at him for what he said. He did end up going to the market a few blocks from the station and getting me roses and a card. The owner was in the station this morning and forgot to get quarters at the bank, so I was sent to the Laundromat to get quarters. I only took a few dollars worth because I used to go to that Laundromat and I know what it's like to only have cash and find the change machine either empty or not working. To many times I've seen people come in there and take like ten dollars worth of quarters and leave. So I told hubby that was all I could get. He sent me with like $50.00 for quarters. The machine probably doesn't have that much in it. So, we ended up at the market, with me begging for quarters and hubby trying to redeem himself. He's over in the corner looking at the cards. As you walk in the door is a huge stand with Valentines day cards on it. Hubby never saw it, lol. Since I was along, I picked out my own roses. I got a bouquet of red and one of white. Hubby was surprised at 2, but didn't complain. He wanted me to pick out my own card and I told him to do it. I got a box of dark chocolate cordial cherries. Love those things. Never saw them in dark chocolate, but I have a hard time resisting dark chocolate period.

Since hubby's forgiven I decided to make him a plate of snack things. I wasn't sure if he had eaten yet so I just gave him some hot wings, chicken nuggets, cole slaw and some spinach and artichoke dip he had frozen. Took that to the station along with his bag I've been adding to for the past 2 weeks. This year I did just little things because I really didn't know what else to do. Last year I got him a sterling silver ring with a tigers eye in the middle and do you know, not even a month later he lost it! I saved to buy that ring for like a month. So no more expensive jewelry for him.

I think tomorrow I'm going to go and get Chinese take out. I really wanted that today, but I had to go all the way into Hudson for it, since there's no takeout or fast food close to home. I was tired from all the running I had to do today. Yesterday hubby wanted me to go and get chicken for the store, but I couldn't do it. So I got stuck with doing it today. Hubby went to work at noon and the chicken store closes at 2 pm today, so time was short. My plans were to work on my class and do laundry. No work on the class, but I did print out the next few chapters.

The last load of laundry is in the dryer for the night. I had to wash my coat. Yesterday when I was in the in service, the woman sitting next to me dropped her cup of coffee on the floor. I didn't think much of it. Thought maybe she might have splashed me a little. Yeah, right. She got my purse which was sitting on the floor on the opposite side, my shoe, my pant leg and the whole side of my coat, sleeve and pocket and bottom. I kept smelling coffee in there and just thought it was from the floor. Then I go to put my coat on and realize it's rather damp. Of course, my purse is sticky and there's coffee on the other side of my coat when the purse laid against it. So, had to wash my coat today. It washed and dried really nicely.

Tomorrow I'm determined to do only what I have planned. Nothing else, lol.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Finally out of the dark

This has been such a long and busy week, I'm glad it's come to an end. I've had better weeks, though. I was still tired when I got up this morning, not something you want to be feeling when you have a long day ahead of you. The only thing that did work in my favor was my lady was so exhausted from not sleeping for the past 2 days, all she did was sleep while I was there. Those are my kind of Fridays, lol. Left early to do do my thing at the office, still tired and so not wanting to be there. Glad it was only 2 hours instead of 3 and it did go rather fast. The only problem was my stomach was bothering me when I got there and the first thing we did was watch a movie about infection control. Well, it was rather detailed and it did nothing for my already upset stomach. I found myself looking at the floor and taking deep breaths, a lot. Normally, this isn't a problem, but it was with an upset stomach. Felt much better after it was over and we all got to demonstrate universal precautions. By the time I got back to my seat I was feeling so much better that the rest of the time seemed to just fly by, that and the fact that she skipped a lot because it was a Friday afternoon and she wanted to go home to, lol. We have to do this every year, so it's not like we're missing something.

Since I was in town I decided to check and see if I could find ink for my printer and low and behold, the slot was stocked! My, my. So I grabbed one and was on my way. The day before valentines I guess isn't the day to go shopping, the place was packed. I had turned off my phone before I went to the office. Hubby called me a few times and since he's been a bad husband and I'm not talking to him, I decided to shut if off and keep it off. Left the boys a note and knew they would be calling me. When I finally turned it back on, there were a few messages from hubby, but none from the boys. So I called the boys and made sure they had everything done because they had to go to youth group tonight. I would be home late and they had to have had dinner before we left. They said they did everything. To bad if they didn't. Just as I walked in the door hubby called to see if I was home. Didn't want to talk to me, just checking to make sure I'm there. Yeah, he was getting worried, lol. Drop the boys to youth group and I notice on the way home, it's really dark outside. Like darker than normal. Then I go by a gas station and realize it's closed. Then I realize the power is out, that's why it's darker than normal. Now in my house, there are never any flashlights or if there is, they don't have any batteries in them. Or the batteries are dead. So, I had to feel my way around the house looking for a lighter. So glad that was where it was supposed to be. Took that and went around lighting all the candles I could find. So, the cat decided that she is going to chase the shadows from the flickering candles. Well, at least I had entertainment, lol. Hubby calls, I answered the phone because I couldn't see the caller id, lol. He wanted to know if I had power. Um, no, obviously you don't either. He asked me why the power was out. Like I would know. I just walked into a dark house. He told me to call the power company and see what happened and when it would be back on again. Yeah, right. He must have called about 5 times. Every time I would start to get warm he would call. Finally, he called to tell me he was going to try to get a nap and that he was upstairs in the apt and wanted me to call him when the power went back on. Two and a half hours later the power finally comes back on. I call him upstairs and no answer. I call the station and he's like so you're awake. I never went to sleep, to many candles burning and a cat acting like a fool. Never know when she's going to run smack into a table with a candle on it. Then he tells me the power has been on for the past 30 minutes, why didn't I call. Maybe because my power just came on. I asked him why he didn't call me. He said he did. Told him my phone never rang and he must be dialing the wrong number. Again. Then he says the power has only been on for about 20 minutes, which means it came back on around 9:00, not 8:30. Caught again. He knows I'm not happy with him, why make matters worse??

So the plans for the weekend are to work on my class, now that I have ink. I have 2 cartridges. The one I ordered online came today to. Play catch up with the class and the laundry. I haven't been here long enough at night to do more than one load, and that stays in the dryer until I wash another, lol.

Since we had one day where the temps got close to 50 all the snow and ice started to melt. We went to bible study on Wednesday and getting up the driveway was a real chore. The mud was just making the tires spin as you went up. So, since I'm notorious for getting cars stuck, I parked in the closest spot I possibly could. Everyone who came in commented on the think mud. The last people to come in, the wife says she needs all the young males to help her husband push the car out. He's stuck in a snow bank. It took me a minute to realize what she said. I was just automatically thinking, mud. But no, she said snow. Apparently he slipped on the mud and slid into the piles of snow that are at the sides on the driveway still. Plowed right in, nose first, lol. At least I'm not the only one, lol.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Glad this day is almost over

Today has been a very unsettled day for me, mood wise. Work was ok, found a unsettling note left for me. Getting tired of these notes telling me things I already know about! Hubby, again, had to work early so no hubby when I got home. Decided to take the oldest shopping for his shoes he's been needing and the books he's been wanting. Get home and in the mail is the boys progress reports for this quarter. The oldest is doing ok, finally been taken out of art, so he's still on the honor roll.
The youngest, what can I say. The youngest has, once again, failed gym . This is an on going battle with this kid. I'm to the point where I will settle for a 70 out of this kid. But a 58?? Sorry, just inexcusable. His excuse, as it usually is, the teacher doesn't like him. Well, ever since he's had gym the teachers don't like him and fail him for no reason. So, the kid lost his ipod until the grade comes up. That really made him mad and he flipped, the end result is no ipod, no phone calls from either the land line or cell, which I have also. I took his laptop and the tv out of the room. He's not allowed on my computer either. And I'll know if he is. The only thing he has left at this point is the tv in the sun room. Maybe it was to harsh, but once he gets going he just doesn't stop and he knows that I'll just keep adding things on to take away until he stops. So, now he's mad. Still really mad. He has lost some of the attitude, but not much. And, we are cleaning everything and doing things without being asked again. It's not going to change my mind, I said 2 weeks and that's what I meant. And he's not laying eyes on the ipod until he gets another progress report either. No phone use means he can't be left home alone either. Taking him with me every where I need to go is more of a punishment for me than him.

While I was out I went looking for ink for my printer since I'm out. The store was out of stock for the ink cartridges when I bought the printer so I didn't get an extra one. Well, I checked 2 stores and neither one has the cartridges. I really didn't want to order online, I wanted to save myself the shipping charges, but now I have no choice. I have to finish printing out my next book so I need ink. I'll be in town on Friday and I'll check again for the ink in the one store that carries it, but I'm going to order online to. Can never have to much ink. Got all my work done in class yesterday. So glad. Now on to the next one, lol.

Yesterday I finally got my books that I had ordered. That left just my yarn. That came today. I was expecting this big box, what I got was an envelope with 2 balls of yarn. Two of the 3 that I ordered are discontinued. The other one is back ordered and not expected to deliver until April! I'll forget by that time. What a disappointment, but it fits for the kind of day it's been.

Off to do a little reading and then probably bed, tomorrow has to be better.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

odds and ends

I didn't get as much accomplished yesterday as I had planned on. Seemed like every time I turned around there was something I had to do. I did get some work done for my class, just not as much as I wanted to. I'm probably about half way through everything, but some progress is better than no progress. There was a movie on tv I wanted to watch last night, so I did sit down and watch that. The youngest was late in getting home. He came right as we were getting dinner. He said it was fun, but after the dishes were done, he headed to bed. That was around 8 or so. I know the child was tired, lol!

The oldest got a call from the people who take them to youth group asking him if he wanted to go to something last night with them. He went so he also had a really long day. He had to work until hubby started yesterday about 3. I put him to work when he got home working on chipping some of the ice away that is starting to melt. I wanted him to see how much ice he could get off the walkway in front of the front steps. We have a small path the width of the shovel, but with it melting some, it would be nice to have a wider walkway. He did some today on that to. When I asked him exactly where he was going he ccouldn't explain it very well. One of the problems the oldest has is forming coherent sentences. What he's thinking and what he actually says can be to very different things. What he told me was he was going to a musical next to our church. The family he went with used to go to our church so I know they wouldn't take him to anything inappropriate. Well, when the kid got home I asked him where he went and what he did. Since it's fresh on his mind he can explain it better. The family he went with home schools all their kids. They have a huge group of other homeschooling families they associate with. These families, who have lots of kids, all formed a group (don't remember the name of the group) and they put on concerts of christian music. It was held in the social hall of our church. I got all the details this morning from one of the women who also has her daughter in this homeschooling group. They were the hosts for this event. Personally, I'm glad the oldest likes to associate with this family and the things they do. I'm glad he's not getting into to many of the extracurricular activities that are associated with the public school system. I prefer the christian based activities. The youngest is the opposite.

Had such a pounding headache this morning when I left for church. It was just as bad when church was over. It seemed like everyone in there was coughing and sneezing. Glad I've already had my cold, lol. It's only in the 40's here and I think they had the heat turned way up to about 80. It was so hot in there. That just made me feel even worse. I couldn't wait until it was over so I could go somewhere cooler. I just felt like crap when I got home, so I crawled back in bed thinking a nap would make me feel better. It didn't. By this time my stomach wasn't feeling that great either. I finally took something and ate a little. Finally, finally the headache is gone and I feel so much better. I did eat breakfast so I don't know what was up with my stomach, but I can't believe how much better I feel now compared to how I felt before.

The kids have the washer and dryer tied up and dinner is in the slow cooker, so I'm going to work on my class some more for a while and see how much more I can get done. I'm resigned to the fact that I will probably be doing this again tomorrow as well, but hopefully I'll be done by then and I can move on. The only thing I have planned is getting the taxes done tomorrow, early. I had to cancel the doc appt because there was no way I could be at the docs at 9 am then to the tax guy by 10 am. They are 50 minutes apart. So, the taxes first.

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I'm a married mother of 2 teenage boys who lives in Upstate New York.