Waiting...................

I'm one of those people who goes bonkers when they have to wait. Just one of those things I'm not good at. Today is becoming one of those waiting days. UGH!

Talked to hubby last night and he was supposed to call me this morning. So, since the phone jack no longer works in our room, I got up early to get the cordless and put it by the bed. No phone call from hubby. Work however, called at 8:30 am! I would have gotten around to returning the work call, but not at that time. The office only opens at 8:30 am. Talk about someone wanting to get the day off and running bright and early, lol. Anyway, she offered me a new case in my area. I initially turned it down because it was 6 days a week, all evenings, and weekends. With everything I have, that's a lot. But, she offered to split it with someone else with me doing the weekdays, so I said ok. Unfortunately, that means no more night time things. No Bible study, no knitting, and no youth group for the boys. Same amount of working hours for me. The plus side is I have the entire day for myself. With the weather getting nicer, that's ok for now. And I can always go knit in the mornings, for now. But, who knows if this case will work and maybe by the cooler months I can get something else during the day. I have one more chapter to do in my class and then I'm done for the summer. Not touching anything until September. I'm getting into that relaxation mode of not wanting to do much.

So, I called hubby and he was getting ready to leave for the airport. He still doesn't know if anyone will be there to pick him up when he arrives. I'm sorry, but that just sucks. He was thinking he will have to take a train out of the city to get here. He did call his relative, but he was vague about whether or not he was coming. That's family for ya! I would go get him myself, but I don't know the way and I would want someone to go with me. It's a 4 hour drive. And then having to deal with the airport and all that traffic. Ugh! I don't like to drive anyway. So we left it at hubby will call me when he gets to the airport, before he leaves. Then again when he arrives in the states.

It's been rather nice here today. Warm, but bearable. Hopefully tomorrow will not be to sunny and mostly cloudy so I won't melt at work tomorrow. And if I get really lucky, maybe the daughter will actually have enough common sense to have a fan out. She seems to think since she loves the high heat and humidity that everyone does. Wrong!! But, maybe this will be my last week there, so I can hang in there for one more warm day. It's supposed to be in the mid to upper 80's here again today, but my house if comfortable. Only one ceiling fan running and the temp seems to be holding in the mid 70's inside. Of course, all that will probably change once the boys get here and are running in and out of the doors and leaving them open, lol. I myself haven't gone outside yet. I do have to return the movies I rented. I saw The Lodger. Really good movie, except I thought it was what the movie made it out to be, but at the end, well, kind of changed my mind and maybe I was wrong. I also rented The Boy in the Stripped Pajamas and Bottle Shock the night before. Both were good, except I should have watched Bottle Shock last instead of first. The other one, well, I woke up the next morning with it on my mind. No more movies until the weekend now. The tv isn't working, seems to have something wrong with the converter box. Have to have someone come here and fix it but since there's not usually anyone home during their working hours, I have to wait because I needed to schedule a day when I'm home all day. Oh well, I'll be getting lots of knitting and reading done this week, lol.

Hot, hot , hot

Yesterday we had record breaking temps all over the state. Downstate had a few cities reach 89! My little area hit a high of 84. The old record was set in the 1940's at 82 or 84 can't remember which, lol. I myself did mostly nothing. It was just way to hot. I did mange to get hubby's vest fixed. Again. I managed to mess it up again while doing the decreases. Decreasing, binding off and keeping the design straight was really a challenge for my concentration, lol! But, I finally got it and have a few more rows and that's all finished. Thankfully, lol!!! Hopefully the front will be much easier.

Today is absolutely beautiful. Not supposed to be as warm as yesterday. There's quite a nice breeze blowing, so today I will do the running I didn't do yesterday. By the afternoon, all I wanted to do was sleep, lol. Today we will weed, go into town for some produce and get Pansy. They might get planted today. Tomorrow is supposed to be very warm again, so not doing to much. The boys have to work the garden and today will be the best day for it. Yesterday the youngest was in and out all day and the oldest was playing yo'ville on the computer all day.

The oldest rode his bike to work yesterday. When he comes home around 1 pm I see him walk in the door wearing his winter coat!! Now I know 8 am is cool, but not cool enough for a winter coat. Besides, he's riding his bike. That makes you warm anyway. This kid, I just don't understand him. Every year we go through the same thing when the weather changes. If I didn't take his winter clothes he would wear them all summer long. The same when the weather changes back to cooler weather. The kid stands out for the bus with a sweatshirt on and it's so cold you can see his breath! And you know he's cold because he's shivering so bad he can't stand still. I just don't understand why the kid doesn't comprehend the differences in temps and dress accordingly.

Well, today's the last day I get to talk to hubby. Yesterday he had his sister packing for him. He was packing yesterday and today. He has only a few people to visit and that's it for today. Tomorrow will be a very long day for him. His flight leaves at 9 am on Tuesday. His family lives about 7 hours from the airport so they are leaving around midnight on Monday. That's a ride I wouldn't want to make round trip. So we will go 36 to 48 hours with no contact. That's longer than when he leaves. When he left this time occasionally I would look at the clock and think that hubby is still in the air, get out of bed in the morning and realize he is still in the air somewhere.

Well, I have things to do today and they won't get done playing on here, lol.

Lazy weekend

All week I've been looking forward to the weekend, for many reasons. Three days off, nice weather, and the last weekend before hubby finally comes home. So, during the week I make all these plans for the weekend. Things I want to do. Well, the weekend it here, and all I really want to do today is nothing. Absolutely nothing. It's feeling more like a lazy Saturday to me. Now, sure I could put everything off for tomorrow. But that would make it a really busy day. Today it's supposed to hit 85 and tomorrow 75. Tomorrow really is weeding the flower beds weather. It is also running into town weather. The youngest started hanging the clothes outside and he's complaining about it being really hot already. Well, that's what it feels like when you're standing in the sun, lol.

I had thought of doing all the running yesterday after work, but I was so tired and work was such a bad day, I just needed to de stress. So, I cleaned all the patio furniture, swept the deck, put up the gazebo, did a little weeding in the shady spots, and dug out all the pillows and cushions. And I wondered why last night my back and legs hurt, lol. I do need to wash the pillows for outside later today. First, I have to get laundry caught up. I haven't done any for about 3 days. Just to many other things to do, and we still have clean clothes, lol. But, now the baskets are over flowing and that is bothering me. I've been working real hard on keeping the house really clean. Not that my house is dirty, but it usually has that lived in look. Lately I've been making sure nothing is out of place. Not an easy task with two sloppy teenage boys, lol.

Well, I'm off to make my list for today and see what I might actually do today.

I can get excited now

Hubby's mothers surgery went well yesterday and she's coming home today. I think we all have been holding our breath for a while now. But, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

Sometimes when I call hubby the connection is good and we can talk without getting interrupted for the full time on the calling card. Other nights, like last night, we keep getting disconnected. I gets annoying because if you get disconnected, you lose more minutes than what you actually used. Anyway, after I finally got through, we were talking a little and I asked about his mother, and we disconnected. Call back again and in a few minutes same thing. So.......... the next time as soon as he picked up I asked him about his mother. Talk about prolonging things, lol. He was telling me that he had been up since around 2 am because there were some nasty storms that went through and they lost power because of it. Him and his uncle had to go outside and start the generator so they could have water and enough electric to charge the cell phones. His uncle gets up around 4 am to start his work on the farm, and his aunt gets up at that time to make roti (bread) and tea for him before he goes, so they needed water to. His main plans were to take his mom home and spend some time with her. Later he was going to take a nap. I sure hope he got one.

Went to go knit this morning and glad I did. I would have never figured out the directions for this part of hubby's vest. Hubby called while I was there and asked me where I was that I wasn't home. It was just really weird knowing he's so far away and hearing him ask me that. I told him I needed help with his vest. His response, It's not done yet?? Ok, smarty, lol. I'm going to try really hard to have at least the back done by the time he comes home. Now that I've worked through the confusing part, that's what's next. Another 14 inches or so.

My little lady had her pace maker surgery today. I hope everything went well for her to. I do hope though, that if she has to stay over night in the hospital or something that her daughter would have enough sense to call the agency and let us know, beforehand. Usually with her, it's the second before. It gets irritating when I get a call from work not to go as I'm pulling into the driveway. She did that last week to me. gggrrrr. Yesterday she had a doc appt for her and no body knew about it until I walked in the door, hours before. It didn't effect me, but the woman who works after me was irritated that she only had to stay about 45 minutes. I don't blame her, I would be to.

Bible study is tonight, but not sure if I'm going. This day has just flown by and all I really want to do is get some serious knitting done. All I got done this morning was pulled 2 rows out and re knitted one. Not a lot, lol.

Lost page

I have been searching for this web site that I haven't been to in a while. It's not one I use to much. Anyway, I'm searching and trying to think of even the name of this site and finally realized I get some mail from it at the other addy. So, open that one and click on any old email from that site. Looking everywhere on that site for this one thing in particular. Gone. Nothing. Nothing even close to what I'm looking for. And believe me, I went to places on that site that I never went to before, lol. So.............. I'll have to figure out something else.

Hubby's moms surgery was today. I don't know how it went. I had asked hubby last night to call me and let me know how it went, but................ well, he did call. Unfortunately, my cell had no service when he called and he left a message. Said a lot of things but nothing about his mother. He sounded like he either had been drinking or was so tired he was just giddy. He called the house phone to and but didn't leave a message. That in itself tells me he wasn't his normal self. But, I'm assuming everythings ok. I'll know if I talk to him tonight for sure. He called me last night and had told me he had been up since like 5 am because his mother had to be at the hospital early. He called me before he went to bed the night before (his time) and it was around 11:30 or so when he was getting to bed . That's late for him. He goes to bed between 8 & 9 pm and wakes around 6:30 am. But, at least she had the surgery. The man had me so confused about when it was going to be. It seemed like every time he talked to me it was a different day, lol. But, as of last night all the test results were ok and surgery was a go.

Got a call from work after I got home. She wanted to know what I was doing tomorrow since I'm off. I told her I was going to go knit. I'm stuck on hubby's vest and need help before I go to far and have to rip out inches and inches since what I thought might work, really didn't. I think maybe she just wanted to see if I wanted to work. I should have asked her if she had something for me, but I didn't. I'll never get any farther unless I do this. Regular knitting doesn't start again until October. I really don't want to wait that long. The women I knit with on Thursday night are good knitters, but not experienced enough to help me through this. The one woman who is doesn't come anymore since she has a landscaping business and it's starting to pick up now with the weather getting nicer.

Speaking of weather. The weekend is supposed to be gorgeous. Friday in the low 70's and Saturday and Sunday in the low 80's. Now, it's to early for 80's for me, but I'm going to be lovin Friday. We are going to re mulch the flower beds around the house, after we pull weeds, lol. The boys don't know it, but they are going to be helping. I also want to get fertilizer for the garden. This weekend might be a good time to have the small herb garden dug as well. We'll see just how motivated the boys will be on that one, lol.

No motivation today

Today is one of those days where I just want to stay in bed. I'm up, but not really wanting to be. I think maybe I finally slept really good last night. It's taking me quite a while to wake up and start moving. If I had to work today it would be a I don't want to work today kind of day, lol.

But, there are a few things I need to get accomplished. Like the never ending laundry, and a few errands. I think I will probably end up crawling back in bed early tonight. I rented movies last night. Doubt and Slumdog millionaire. Both were really good movies.

Talked to hubby and he is still in pain from his tooth. I asked him if he was going to get it taken care of today. He said he was, but his mothers surgery is supposed to be today, and knowing my husband, he won't get it taken care of today if she has the surgery.

It's supposed to rain for the next 3 days or so. It's much cooler and very windy still, but by the end of the week they are predicting close to 70, so I can wait. This weekend I plan to fertilize the garden so I can plant seeds next month. I'm waiting because it still is getting so cold at nights. I made the mistake of leaving the lily plant I bought myself outside over night, and well................. I hope the poor things comes back. It just never occurred to me it was still getting that cold out. I don't' know where my head was, I just wasn't thinking.

Intresting day

My Friday is finally here, lol!! I've forgotten what only working a few hours actually feels like. At knitting last night we were talking about the nice weather and Miss V was saying how she had taken the day off knowing it was going to be so nice. Miss MG, who doesn't work any more, I didn't realize this, was saying she was going to go back outside today and tackle the rose bush that had roughed her up that day, lol. Only today she was determined to win, lol. And Miss M, well, she has to work all day today. So I told her not to feel bad, that I had to work today to, but only for a few hours. It's been a very productive day. I didn't sleep in like I had fantasies of, and got a lot done before I had to go to work. The boys are going to youth group so it will be a very quiet night for me. Going to work on hubby's vest some more. By the time knitting comes back around next week, I hope to be at the point where the arm holes are and just might be needing help there. I have to decrease and still keep the hounds tooth pattern. Not sure about this one.

Talked to hubby last night and he was so depressed sounding. He's tired of being there and wants to come home. For once he didn't know exactly how many days he has left. Still complaining about being so tired and doing nothing but tossing and turning all night long. I sssooooo know that feeling. I took some advil before bed last night because I have been having to prop myself up at night to sleep, even a little. Between the sore throat, which gets dry at night and hurts even worse, and the ear/jaw pain, sleeping elevated helps. Some. The advil takes the edge off the pain enough that I can actually relax and sleep for a few hours. Still not enough though. This morning I woke and the sore throat is feeling better. Slightly sore. No more ear pain, but some jaw pain. It's significantly better than it has been all week. But, sometimes I have a voice and then sometimes it's barely above a whisper. Hubby picked up on that. I told him I'm sick again. He was telling me that him and his uncle had gotten into an accident yesterday. They were stopped at a light and when the light turned green, the guy behind them ran into them. Driving over there is very different from here. You get hit if you don't get out of the way. That's what happened to them. Anyway, hubby's uncle was upset at the guy for hitting them and the guy was upset at hubby and his uncle for being in the way. They ended up in a fist fight. Hubby's uncle was very angry, but they settled it and each went on their own way. Very different country. But, at least they are both ok, just some damage done to the back of the van. It was a hatchback and the rear door is dented.

For some reason today, all I want to do is eat. Never feel full. This isn't good for someone who should be losing weight, not gaining, lol. I had breakfast and I had lunch and I'm still hungry, lol. So for dinner I'm making spaghetti with garlic bread. Normally, when the boys have youth group we have frozen dinners but since I'm hungry I'm going to actually cook. Hopefully, that will hold me through the night!

Making time for fun

I seem to be at the point today where I just want things to progress. And they aren't. It seems just one problem after another. I can't say I really know what to do for myself to make me feel better about any of these situations. I know, I know, patience and prayer. I am praying about everything that's bothering me, but the answer just seems to be either no or just wait. The waiting is what I'm having a hard time with.

I don't know if it's me but it just seems like everything is so hard these days and people are so nasty about it. It's like the mindset is everything revolves around ones self. Maybe I'm just running into to many people like that lately, mainly this week. I'm not a normally mean person, and I always try to be helpful, but lately I find myself wanting to be just as nasty right back. I know that's not right to be that way, but enough is enough.

So, tonight I'm going to go knit. I haven't been in a while and I think I could use some fun time. I've kind of been avoiding this because every one knew hubby was away and when he was supposed to return, and now that he hasn't, well, everyone gives me that look like , are you sure he's coming back? Even my own mother asked me that! I could start to question myself, but I know hubby will be back. I know this is as hard for him as it is for me. I told him weeks ago to just do the right thing and that's what he's doing. It doesn't matter if we like it or not.

Tomorrow is a very short day. It's also supposed to be close to 70 tomorrow. Had I known that I would have taken the whole day off, lol. Boys go back to school tomorrow and then youth group at night so it should be a very peaceful day for me. And as far as these situations, I'll deal with the one on Monday. As in attempting a phone call. If that gets me nowhere, then I will just do up a letter and send copies of what I have. I don't know what else to do.

Work was ok, came back to a nasty note about my previous comment, but whatever. This could keep going and I'm not going to do that. Think what you want, I really don't care. Thankfully, the brat was gone for the day. It was such a peaceful day. No yelling, cursing, stomping, throwing things, fighting over the cordless phones, all 3 of them, etc. It was so nice after a week of crap. Even the dog was much calmer, lol.

It's all downhill from here

You would think with today being "hump day" the rest of the week would be easy. I think the rest of my week is going to have a lot of bumps on the way down, lol.

Work wise, I have one more day with that brat and then a very easy Friday. Friday is a short one, two hours and I really didn't have to work that. I had a nice chat with one of my supervisors and she gave me the option of not working on Friday if I didn't want to. She was the one I told everything about what's going on at work. And I mean everything. I kind of think she sympathises with me because she gave me the option of not working at all. If hubby was here I would have taken the day off and had a nice long 4 day weekend but, no hubby I have to work.

The weather is supposed to be nice all week, with a possibility of temps close to 70 by Friday. That will be nice to. I don' t have to work until noon, I can sleep late if I want. Yeah right. Sleep seems to be a thing of the past for me lately. But, with a nice weekend, I hope I feel good enough to want to work outside. The boys have been working on getting the garden ready. Hopefully, by the weekend it will be ready to fertilize so I can put my carrots, radishes, and maybe onions in. Last year we planted onions and scallions, but they went late into the season. The kale is starting to come back nicely. I just wish it wasn't right at the gate as you walk in. Been thinking I'll plant some lettuces soon and maybe try to keep them going all summer long. Unfortunately for the boys, they think they are done digging in the garden. Wrong! I want a small herb garden this year to. Love cooking with fresh herbs.

Woke up this morning to a very sore throat (again), ear and jaw pain. Again. I'm slowly losing my voice as the day goes on so maybe it's a mild cold starting. I don't know. I do know I'm more tired than normal and just want to sleep so I think I'm going to skip Bible study this week and crawl in bed right after dinner and read until I want to sleep. I have/need to feel better by the weekend, I don't want to be cooped up in the house in all that beautiful sunny weather not feeling good, lol. If rain was coming I would gladly make my home on the sofa in front of the tv, but not in sunny weather. I like to get outside as much as possible when the weather's nice like this because all to soon it will be very hot and humid and I'll be hidden in the house until it starts to get nicer again.

Yesterday hubby was taking his family members around where they needed to go. I told him to knock it off and do what he needed to do first. Learn to say NO, lol! He has a few lose ends to take care of for himself and he needs to get them done. Since he had to change his ticket he's short on money. I asked him why his mother didn't pay him to change the ticket since she's the one who insisted he stay. Mean I know, I think lately I'm just tired of a lot of things and it's all bothering me at once.

Have been trying to work on my class and it's been one interruption after another, so I gave up. Not one interruption since I gave up. Figures! Going to take the laundry off the line and then try to have a short nap. We'll see how long I get to lay down without someone having a malfunction!

Bad work day

It's spring break here for the kids. That means my lady's grand daughter is home for the week. We don't like each other. She's like a little spy, every time I do or don't do something, she has to call her mother. I don't like that. I know what my job is and I do it. I don't need a supervisor. Well, this house has both a cat and a dog in the house. There is no litter pan in the house for the cat. Well, you know what happens. When the kid is home on break she never takes the dog outside to do what it needs to do.

Well, today the cat did what it always does on the kitchen floor. I refused to clean it up. The kid then calls her mother and they are complaining, she had her on speaker phone, about my being lazy because I didn't clean it up. Well, my thoughts about that are not good ones. I did have to clean it up because someone came to check the stove in the kitchen and well, he walked in it. I did leave a note stating exactly what my job is,which does not include cleaning up after pets messes.

I really do like this case, and I could have worse, but the more I think about it, the more I want out. I'm getting to the point where I thinking more and more that I really don't need the hassle and aggravation from these nasty people. Really, I don't. I've had worse cases, that's why I snatched this one up. It's a really easy case, but it seems I'm paying for that by having to deal with the attitudes.
The weather here is beautiful today. The sun is out and the temps are decent. Tomorrow is supposed to be just as nice and a little warmer. I plan to go into town and then hopefully do some yard work outside. Haven't decided if I want to weed or start sanding the deck. We have to re stain and waterproof the deck this year and now is the best time to do it temp wise. I also have a screen door that I want to spray paint. I could do that tomorrow as long as it's not to windy. Only a small chance of showers on Saturday, but with temps possibly going into the 60's so I want to make the best of this weather.

I was talking to someone on Sunday who is getting married in May and I guess because he's getting anxious about the wedding and his job and other things, he was telling me that his brother who is a pastor, suggested to him to start reading the Psalms, backwards. This way, when he looks at the chapter he's on, he will know how many days until his wedding. So, based on that I went through the Bible and found 2 books that are 14 chapters long, Hosea and Zachariah. The book of Hosea appealed to me because it's a love story. So, each night before I go to bed I'll read a chapter. I will read it from the first chapter to the last though. Not sure how much sense it would make if I read it backwards, lol. But I can look at is as a way of counting off the days until hubby returns. He did tell his mother he's not changing his ticket again, and I really don't think he will. He said she was ok with that, and he has been saying all along that he wants to be back by the end of April. I did make him promise me he would take care of his things first, before his family's needs now. He's still having problems with his tooth so he needs to go back the dentist for that and he hasn't gone and done any visiting that he wanted to do or finished his shopping yet. These are all things he needs to do. If not, his family will have him running ragged and he will have all this stuff to do the last day. I told him sometimes he needs to day no and do for himself first. He's been there 5 weeks, there's no reason why he shouldn't have this stuff taken care of. Long ago.

Well, I need to get outside, if I don't the boys won't get the garden worked on.

Guess I'm going to find out

Well, hubby has a new return date. In another two weeks! Before, when I knew there was a possibility of his having to stay I kept telling myself, Whats another week or two. Well, now it looks like I'm going to be finding out. I'm not happy about this, I'm really upset about this. Every time he goes over there, something happens to make him have to stay longer. Again, the month long trip has become a 2 month trip. This may be wrong, but I absolutely hate his going there. I think the dream I had the other week was Gods way of preparing me. His way of letting me know that hubby won't be back when he's supposed to be. And, I took Wednesday off, thinking he would be here. Not that I won't enjoy the day off, I will, but still I wanted it off for a happy reason. Ever since hubby left, I have kept myself really busy. This way I wouldn't miss him so much. But, after doing this since March, well, I'm getting tired.
I'm trying not to be angry, but it's not working very well. I keep thinking if his mother would have had her surgery, when we sent the money, before hubby got there, then he would be coming home tomorrow. I don't think it's right for her to tell him he can't leave until she's had her surgery either. But, maybe I"m just being selfish about the whole thing. All hubby keeps saying is nobody cares and nobody understands.
And then I keep thinking maybe this is a test of my patience. Maybe God is trying to teach me patience. Maybe there is a reason hubby is supposed to be there for another 2 weeks. I know there is a reason, I just don't know what it is yet.
All I know is right now this day has started off wrong and not gotten any better. Maybe I just need to go hibernate for a while and start over again tomorrow.

Taking a break from the kitchen

It's break time for me while the eggs cool. I was up way to early this morning and just couldn't go back to sleep. But, knowing all the work I had to do today, I laid there for a while. Actually, I laid there until I got tired of hearing the cat do her morning crying routine, lol. Then she just wouldn't leave me alone. Just meowing and meowing at me like crazy. I held her for a while and she settled down. Finally!

So far this morning I've gotten the salad ready. Everything is cut up in bags and just has to be added tomorrow morning. The carrots, celery, broccoli and cauliflower are done, pickles and olives done, eggs are cooling for deviled eggs, and the macaroni salad for our own dinner tomorrow is done. All I have left are the eggs and cheesecake to finish, as well as clothes to iron for tonight and tomorrow. Tomorrow I will make the stuffing before I go that way it will be hot and stay that way. And I don't have any more room in my fridge for anything else, lol.

Talked to hubby last night and again no surgery. Supposed to be Tuesday. Hubby is supposed to leave on Tuesday. He went Friday to the airport to get his sisters husband and didn't get to bed until around 2 am. I called him a hour later than I normally do, which was around 7:30 am his time and they already had him up! The man was getting ready to drop his grandmother somewhere. Poor man, they really need to let him get some sleep now! Today he had to go to the dentist and get his tooth finished, and then later in the evening to his sisters for dinner. All he kept saying was he was so tired and ready to come home. Nobody cares and nobody understands.

As for his coming home on Tuesday, I don't know what he's going to do. He did say his mother wants him to stay until she's had her surgery. I can understand that but.............. He was telling me though, that they have an appt on Monday and if the surgery will be done on Tuesday he will get her medicines and he will leave to come home on Tuesday. If not, then he might end up staying, he doesn't know yet. He may not be able to change his ticket, the ticket place may not be open for him to be able to change it to. If he can't then he's coming home because he doesn't want to buy a new ticket. He said he told his mother that and she got mad at him. Oh well. He's to the point now where he's had enough and he's getting angry. I can understand that, I would have been beyond angry by this point. I don't think it's fair of his mother to ask him to stay. Even if they get another doctor, this may go on for another 2 weeks or more. She has known for the past 7 weeks now that she needed surgery and never did anything until a week and a half before hubby was supposed to leave. She could have had the surgery done by the time hubby got there! Her bp is fine now, it's the doctor who keeps changing the date when he's going to do it.

As much as I want hubby home and don't want to wait any longer, I told him he had to do the right thing. He did say he's not waiting any longer than the end of April. If it's not done by then, he's coming home. No matter what. I figure, it's the middle of April anyway, whats another week or two? I'll be fine as long as I don't think about just how long he's actually been gone now. So Monday, for sure I will know what's going on.

Patience, I have to keep reminding myself to be patient.

Almost.........the end of the week

Yesterday was a really bad day. Didn't sleep well and woke up with the feeling that hubby won't be home on Tuesday. For the past 6 weeks now, I have known his mother was supposed to be having knee surgery. In my thinking, it would have been done by now. No, not yet. For the past 2 weeks hubby has been telling me that surgery might be the next day. He did tell me over the weekend that if her bp was up enough they would do surgery on Monday. If not then on Tuesday. Well, her it is Thursday and still no surgery. Last night he told me it would be Thursday night. I spoke with him this morning and still no surgery. Was told to come to hospital tomorrow afternoon. We are both getting a little nervous because he is leaving early Tuesday morning. Now, I know my husband and if his mother hasn't had surgery yet, he will wait. As much as I want to be selfish, I know I have to do the right thing. If he comes home and she has surgery and something happens, he will only end up back there anyway so.......... He just might not be home on Tuesday. I still can't shake that feeling, even after talking to him. He did tell me he still thinks he's coming on Tuesday and hasn't changed his plans. But, I've been praying she has this done by Friday and all goes well so hubby can leave when he's supposed to.



I have no where I have to be after work except home doing what needs to be done, lol. All week I have been doing errands after work and I'm so tired. I think Monday is going to be a stay in bed until whenever day, lol. I decided to run into town on Tuesday and do all the shopping for the pot luck at church. And for our small dinner. Wednesday was the special Easter service, with communion, which was really nice and made me forget about my grumpy self, lol. It gave me that feeling of peace I so desperately needed. Today I have to find clothes for myself and the boys, make sure everything fits and is ironed and their shoes. The shoe part is a chore in itself since they never can find even one pair of shoes on a daily basis, let alone church shoes, lol. Friday I will make the potato salad and find dishes for the stuff for the pot luck. Then on Saturday I will be making everything else for Sunday. I'm bringing rolls, tossed salad, black and green olives, dill and bread and butter pickles, carrots and celery, stuffing and peaches and cream cheesecake for dessert. Since I'm bring a tossed salad I'll do myself a favor and cut everything up on Saturday and then all I have to do in the morning is throw it all together. And make the stuffing, but boxed stuffing is easy, lol. I will make the macaroni salad for us on Saturday. That way on Sunday I won't have much to do. I'm sure I'll be pretty tired by the time I get home on Sunday and I'll be glad. I also have to remember that we are having a service on Saturday night, so the more I can spread out over the next few days, the easier it will be for me. Our Easter dinner at home, since the main course will be at the church, will be a small sliced ham, potato and macaroni salad with baked beans. I figure that will be good since at the pot luck we are having both turkey and ham, potatoes, two kinds of casseroles, one is a green bean casserole, lasagna, cranberry sauce, and I don't know what all else, lol. So, between the two places, we are pretty much set. We did it this way since some people won't be having a big dinner because of the pot luck and the guest speaker will actually have a nice holiday meal before him and his wife leave to go to their next place.

I couldn't think of what to get hubby for Easter so I got him a few t-shirts and some button down shirts and a card. The only thing that came to mind was the t-shirts since he has only a few, but he really is more of a button down shirt kind of guy. When he decides to do things around the house he never has anything to wear. He spends 99% of his time in his work clothes. I'm hoping that will change. He keeps telling me when he gets back he is going to work less and spend more time with me, lol. I hope after the summer I can get him to take one day off a week. It's nice to have him here just to do nothing. I don't think the man remembers what it's like to take time for himself and just relax and do nothing.

Another day

Today just seems to be starting off as a ho hum day. I don't really have a lot planned for today. No motivation either, lol. It's another cloudy, rainy day and I wish I would have just stayed in bed instead of getting up so early.

I was outside chasing my lawn chairs that the winds have blown all over the place, including into the field behind us. Still so darn windy out there! So I took the chairs and stacked them in a corner of the house. Hopefully, they will stay that way since it's still supposed to be very windy the next few days. The temps aren't to bad, but with the wind whipping around out there, it feels cold. The rest of the week is supposed to be in the lower 40's. Feeling like early March instead of mid April.

I have a little light cleaning to do and then I just might work on hubby's vest some more and the baby blanket I've started for the neighbor. She's due late September, early October, I think. Anyway, plenty of time to get it done and maybe a pair of booties with any leftover wool. Other than that I think I'm going to give myself a break and not push it since this week will be so busy. I'll probably need my energy, lol.

I'll find out tonight if hubby's mother had surgery today or tomorrow. He was supposed to finish his dental work today and then this afternoon work on his fathers house some more. It should only be a short while since this is his last full week there and he has visits to make, shopping to do and he wants to get curtains made for the living room and our bed room. I told him since he thinks the curtains take a week to make, that he needs to have them started either today or tomorrow at the latest. I have a feeling this week is going to go by very fast for him to, lol.

The sun is shining!!!

I'm sure this is just a tease, but I intend to enjoy the sun for today, lol. The past few days have been dreary and wet. This is our rainy season, I think, lol.



Since it was raining yesterday and I really had nothing important that had to be done, I decided to just lay in bed until I was ready to get up. That was the plan anyway. Well, the oldest got me up around 8:30 am for a ride to work since it was raining, and well, riding your bicycle in the rain is no fun. Ok, took him to work, all the time I'm thinkin I can just crawl back into bed. After all, the pjs are still on. Get back into bed and read for a little bit, then lay back down. The cat decided now is the perfect time to start her crying and carrying on. I closed the door which only made her even louder. So, open the door and coax her in the room and in bed with me. She has a thing about doors in the house being closed. Don't close a bedroom door or anything and she will push at it until she gets it open, or you open it. I don't know why that is except she has always been that way since she adopted us. So she starts to find her spot on the bed and I start to relax again. I feel this tugging at the sheets at my back and then something is pushing at my back. It's the cat. I roll over, thinking she wants under the covers. She just looks at me and starts her crying and whatnot again. I'm thinking maybe something is wrong with her so I get out of bed to check her and she runs off the bed and down the hallway, looking back to make sure I'm coming. We get out to the kitchen and she just sits down to eat, like normal. It finally dawned on me that the cat wanted me out of bed. My laying in bed longer than normal had her all confused, lol. She was quiet after I got up. It's one thing for your kids not to leave you alone, but totally another when the cat won't!



Hubby called me last night and was sounding really down in the dumps. His stomach had been upset for most of the day and he went to bed early. He called when it was 5 am his time. His tooth has been started at the dentist on Saturday. He has to go back on Monday for the tooth to be finished. His mother is supposed to go for her surgery that same morning as long as her bp is high enough. If not they will give her medicine to make it higher and then do the surgery on Tuesday. She will only need to stay in the hospital for one day. It might be a very busy day on Monday for him. His BIL is coming on Thursday for a few weeks while he's on spring break. So, he will be driving to Delhi to the airport with his sister to get her husband. I think for the most part he is done with his fathers house. This is his last full week there so he has visiting and shopping to do. I've slowly given him a list, lol. I was looking at his return schedule and his flight out of Delhi is 9 am. That means leaving for the airport early in the morning and no late night/early morning phone call for me. I figure the last day I'll be able to talk to him will be Sunday night/Monday morning for him. That will be hard. I have to remember to start reminding him to call me before he leaves for the airport on Tuesday since it will be daytime for me and then to call me when he lands in NJ.



Went to church this morning and the service was a really good one. We are having a guest speaker on Easter morning. The norm when we have someone speak is to have a pot luck after the service. This Sunday will be the same. We did get together after church and decide to do a regular holiday meal. We are having both turkey and ham, and bringing sides to go along with that. The former pastor and his family will also be there next week. It will be nice to see them again since it's probably been about a year since they've been back. His parents and lots of relatives still live in the area. His father passed away the end of April last year, but it was a long time coming. All in all we were told to plan food for about 40 to 45 people. For us, that's a lot since the norm is about 20. So tomorrow I will look for recipes for desserts and start getting my shopping list together. I'll probably shop on Thursday and spend the day Saturday cooking and baking. Instead of doing a special service on Friday and the regular Bible Study on Wednesday night, what they decided to do is a special service on Wednesday and since the guest speaker will be here on Friday, do a special service on Saturday night and then the regular service on Sunday. Busy week! But, that will be good. It will keep my mind off the fact that hubby is still away. And by the time Monday gets here, he will be back the next day so hopefully the wait will feel short.