New week

I'm hoping this week goes smooth. Just so much to do. After work today I have to return something at wally world and then go to the verizon store and pay the bill. My plans were to just come home and continue working on the house. In the process of changing curtains and putting out Christmas decorations. Started on the windows, but ran out of push pins. Bought them when I was out yesterday.

I have been telling hubby for months that I want to look for a new sofa for the sun room. The one we have is a sleeper sofa, but the cushions are so broke in that when you sit on it, you feel the wooden frame where the mattress sits inside, against the back of your legs. I've even put pillows under the cushions, but they have to be moved out over the frame every time you sit down. It's not a need, but a new one would be nice. So, hubby says the other day that this weekend he wants to get a new sofa for the living room and move the sofa we have now into the sun room, and get rid of the sun room sofa. I'm all for getting rid of the sun room sofa. But, I really like my living room sofa and want to keep it in there. He wants to get one of those sectionals to go in the living room. I want something easy to clean and doesn't show the dirt in the sun room since that's the room we watch tv in, eat in, etc. That room was designed with getting a lot of use and being dirty in mind, lol. I've been looking for sofas, but really haven't found anything I really like. Him and his cousin have been looking for sofas because his cousin needs one. So why do we need one now?? It's almost like they are in competition with each other. I have no problem with getting new stuff. My problem is I don't want to listen to him cry when the bills come in.

Back to the routine

Well, this is where I should be this morning, but I'm not. Instead, I'm making a list for the day/ week, and then going to try my best to stick to it. This whole week has been upside down for me and I need to get back on track.

So, laundry is done and hanging outside, yes, a huge no-no for me, did some straightening in the kitchen, dishes done, and ground turkey dethawing for dinner tonight. Making chili. Yum! It's rather nice outside today. Yesterday was so windy you couldn't do anything outside. It's been cloudy for the past 4 days or so. The sun is out today and it's making me want to be out in it. We had snow flurries yesterday. The first! They were mixed in with some rain showers. Predictions for the higher elevations were for possibly 1-3". Yup, that time of the year.

We went to an Indian food store yesterday. It was about an hour drive each way. The store was small, but had a lot of stuff and the owners were actually nice. There's another store we used to go to, about the same distance, but the woman who ran it was never nice, even to hubby. There's a bigger store not far from that little one, which I really liked, but hubby said the stuff in there was old. Ok. The store we went to yesterday also had food for take out. Hubby ordered samosas. Boy, were they good!! They were better than the ones I've gotten in the restaurant we sometimes go to. I have to check into learning how to make them, if they aren't to involved. All last week hubby got indian food for dinner. Last night, he got a sandwich for dinner at work because no one cooked for him, lol. I had gone out and did some more holiday shopping. By the time I got home it was to late to cook indian food. I had gotten pork chops out before I left. I'm happy to say maybe 2 more trips and my guys will be done. Started hubby and the oldest. Hubby has been so hard this year, everything I want to get him he shows no interest in or wants to get for himself over in Indian when he goes. Geez! But, he's getting a stand to stack his movies in. He was telling me about it the other day and then showed it to me when we were in the store. Perfect, except I have to keep him from going in there and getting it himself, lol. Got all the guys some clothes yesterday.

Decided I wanted to decorate my windows this year. I haven't done that in ages. I wanted some red ribbon to hang gold balls from in the windows. Except, I wasn't willing to pay an arm and a leg for the ribbon. Found some red ribbon, all on one spool for cheap. Got 2 packs of six gold snowflakes for the same price as the ribbon. All in all it costs me less than $10 to do the windows. Not bad! I'm really in the holiday mood this year. It's been a few years since I wanted to be bothered doing all the decorating and baking, but this year I am. Making a list of cookies I want to bake is on the list for next weekend. I'm thinking I might even do the cookie cutter cookies this year. I haven't done those since I was a kid!!

The knitting has been coming along good. Until the day before Thanksgiving. Haven't' touched anything since. Been to tired. Seems like everyday we are going somewhere with hubby's cousin and his wife for the things they need for their house. I don't mind helping, but it's getting exhausting. Today it's just me and hubby going out. And the other guy he works with. At least there will be no kids, lol!

Ok, spent enough time on here. Have to get some more things done in the house before I go running again, lol!

Black Friday and Pink!!

And the craziness has begun!! What's even worse, is I found myself out on black Friday. Again!! I'm not a person who likes crowds, anywhere. I knew I was in trouble when hubby came home with the paper yesterday. Full of the black Friday sales. Personally, I thought I was being smart by not taking today off. Thinking if I had to work I couldn't go shopping. Wrong!! Learned my lesson though, never ever will I work on black Friday again. At least not as long as hubby is around. I think it's his favorite time to go shopping actually.

So, bright and early me, hubby and the oldest hit the stores. Wally world was first on the list. I think we got there around 7 am. Have to say, it really wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. And, we got all but one thing on the list, so it was worth the trip. When we got up to the register there were no lines, not long ones that I could see. I went to the first register who had no one in line. The only problem we really had was finding the tv we wanted. Asked 3 different people and got 3 different answers. But, the last woman I asked was really good. We were looking for a particular tv so she radioed over and told the others that we were on the way and wanted that tv because it was the last one they had. I had the oldest guarding the 2 carts we had and told hubby to go over the the garden section, where the tv's were, and I would meet him there. I round the corner and hubby is standing in the isle. Told the man to run and grab the last one before someone else did!! Sorry, but if you got me up this early I'm gettin what I can get, lol! I got there just before someone else and got the last ticket. Other person wasn't to happy. Anyway, the guy thought there were more of those tv's in the back so he went to look while I waited, and waited, and waited. Finally, one guy comes over and tells me they don't have any more, but do have something similar, but a little more. They only had 3 of those and did I want one. By this time hubby was gone so I told him I wanted one and went to find hubby while they brought them out. If hubby didn't want to pay more we didn't have to get it, but took one just in case. We got 2 because hubby and his cousin both wanted one. The stands were on sale also. There were 4 stands left and I told the oldest to grab 2 and put them in the carts, before we got the tv's. Hubby wanted to wait, told him no because they might not be there after we find the tv's. Glad I did because by the time we found where the tv's were, the stands were gone. I got myself a Kitchen Aid mixer. Which was on sale. I've been wanting one of those like, forever. Three left, grabbed myself one.

Earlier in the week I had to go to wally world and get hubby's cousins wife a vacuum cleaner. Hubby, the cousin and his wife were in wally world but didn't know what kind to buy. Like I do! Anyway, I got a nice one. A really nice one. One I would love to have myself, lol! But, with the boys still home, not putting that much money out on one. I've gone through 3 vacuums in 6 years. Never have I gone through vacuums like this. Now, the boys can now vacuum. So, the one I do have is pretty beat up and doesn't clean all that well, but I've been refusing to buy a new one. I'll get a nice, new one when the boys move out. Anyway, hubby spies the vacuums that are on sale and grabs one of the boxes and asks me if I like that one. So, I go look at the displays and it's ok. He tells me to get it because it's pink. Can you imagine, a hot pink vacuum cleaner, lol?? Well, I'm the proud owner of one. And apparently a lot of other women to because there were 3 boxes left of those. They had other vacuums, but lots of other boxes left and they were cheaper than the one I got. Hubby's got this thing that since I'm female everything I have has to be pink. If it's pink, hubby will get it for me. I really, really detest the color pink!

Got back and dropped everything off and called work to tell them I'd be late. Really wanted a nap before I went to work. Now, since I've been on the go all day, I'm to wound to really relax. Laid down for about an hour and the darn cat would not leave me alone. Guess she was upset because it was late in the morning and I'm in bed. Not the normal routine. Once I got up she was fine. Crawled all over me when I got home but now that she thinks I'm staying, she's fine. Of course, stepping on her a few times might have something to do with it to, lol. Why, why do cats decide to lay right under your feet??????? And then have the nerve to give you a dirty look because you didn't see them??

Came home to the new tv set up and the sun room rearranged. Oh boy!

At a loss

This whole week has been an odd one, so many twist and turns during the week, I'm glad it's over. Woke this morning to the phone ringing. The station calling wanting to know where the oldest is. He was over an hour late. Now, the oldest is 19, but refuses to be responsible for himself. Always depending on me or his brother for everything. He doesn't drive yet because he can't pass the written test. He refuses to study for it, so why would he pass. Years ago I stopped getting the boys up in the morning. They each have alarm clocks and know how to set them. Only, the oldest won't set it. Therefore, I don't feel obligated to wake him. Since I was really irritated at the oldest, I took the youngest to the station instead. He's more responsible than his brother. He'll also be going tomorrow to.

I've talked and talked until I'm blue to the oldest about growing up and being responsible, but it just goes in one ear and out the other. Even hubby has gotten on his case about it. We had heard that when the oldest is at the station in the mornings he just does the minimum and then goes upstairs to the apartment and either watches tv or plays on the other guys computer. Of course, he says not, but if the other guy is telling my youngest knowing it will get back to us, then I think there's some truth there. After all he's my kid and I know how lazy he is. Hubby has suggested sending him to his fathers house in India for a while. Harsh, but maybe that's what he needs. I just don't know with him. I was never happy to just sit back and let things go on around me, I always had to get out into everything. I was driving at 17, and working. I had 2 jobs by the time I was 18 and out of the house. And in business school. Don't know what happened with this kid, But he sure doesn't have my drive. So his punishment for today was to clean the house. Kitchen, bathroom, ceiling fans, wet mop and sweep, and do some outside work. The kid has been busy all day. All day long I had to check behind him and well......................he's done the kitchen floor and the bathroom more than once.

And I have a clean house and didn't have to lift a finger to get it that way!

Back to normal

Got up early this morning to go to my first patient, only to find out, as I was sitting in the driveway of the house, that he had passed. Ok, one less thing I have to deal with this week. Now I'm back home wondering what I can do with this unexpected time I have on my hands. It's terrible that you get so used to a routine that when there's a change, you don't know what to do with yourself at first. I do know I don't have to be in bed so early anymore, which will give me more time to work on knitted gifts at night. I do feel relaxed though.

I've been hearing that hubby's cousin is coming back on the weekend, so hopefully he'll be here and that means I will actually get to come home after work, not 2 hours later. A lot less stress for me. A lot more time to do what I want to do. I've been making hubby do a load of laundry before he goes to work in the morning. He actually looked shocked that I asked him, but didn't say anything. After all, why should I carry the whole load myself? Today I left him a list of a few things to get at the supermarket before he goes to work. I figure he goes there every few days to buy food to cook at the station, he may as well buy food for this house to. The man has had it way to easy for way to long. No reason why he can't do something.

I've finally realized that I don't have to do everything. The more I do myself, the less everyone else does. That's just not right. To much for me. For years and years, I've always been the one to take over things for everyone, always picking up the slack, and eventually I find myself with everything on me. They just let me, no arguments. I finally realized that I have to stop this. It's not good for me and it makes me resentful of everyone who lets me carry the whole load. Then, when I give others things to do, and I have time on my hands, I feel guilty for not doing these things myself. Talk about a vicious cycle.

I have started taking the weekend, the whole 2 days and doing only what I want to do. That makes for a very busy week, but I enjoy the weekends. More and more I'm finding that I like being home on the weekends. I use that time as my time to unwind, no housework, except making dinner. That's it. Sometimes I do some school work, but the main thing is to do what I want, not what is expected of me. Again I feel guilty, but the peacefulness I have usually outweighs the guilt.

End of another week

I'm actually glad today is the end of my work week. I'm tired, but in the mood to get some things organized this weekend. Like my closets. Time to dig out the winter clothes. Went on a glove search last night, only found 3 gloves. One pair though, lol. The weather seems to be staying cooler so I need some warmer tops. But not for work. To hot in there, have to keep some t-shirts out for work. Warm tops for in my house and t-shirts for work, what a combination! Last year at this time I was bundling up because the house I worked in used very little heat, all winter long, so I froze. This year I will melt if I don't dress accordingly.

Also have to think about Thanksgiving. What I'm cooking. I took the day before off as well, so that will be a nice week. Have an in service that week to, so not much will be getting done. I wanted the time to bake the day before. That way the day of I don't have much to do. Don't think anyone's coming this year, haven't invited anyone. Just as well, I can use the time to rest and relax.

I've been hearing hubby's cousin isn't coming back on Sunday. Maybe another week yet. Told hubby I need help with running these kids, because it's just getting to be to much for me. My hospice case hasn't gone away. It's still waiting for me. So, guess Monday or Tuesday I have to start that.

Went to knit last night. The first time I've been out all week. Still working on the baby blanket. Realized I have made a mistake, so ripped it out to the mistake. By the time knitting was over, the blanket was right back to the point it was when I walked in there, minus the mistake.

I've officially started my Christmas shopping! So proud of myself. I've bought a few things, have a few more to get. Not buying much this year and not giving much either. I'm making up 4 baskets and knitting dishcloths and a set of place mats for in them plus some other things like flavored teas, hand soap and whatever looks good. Things I know the families will use. Also have thought of putting sticky buns in there to. That will be the day before given though. Not knitting the guys in the house anything. They don't use it.

The plan for hubby is to get him an mp3 player and download some Indian songs on a blank cd for him. This way we can put them on the mp3 but he can also listen to them at the station in the stereo they have there as well. Other than that a few thermal tops, maybe some bottoms and that's about it. He's been looking at a bracelet for a while now. Might get it for him, might not. I've bought him so many bracelets in the past and he never wears them.

The oldest has me pretty stumped. All the kid wants is games and more games. I refuse to buy the kid any games. Him I have to think on. My parents, their stuff just needs to be boxed. I've been working on their stuff through the months so they are done. That's about it for Christmas in this house this year. Not over working myself with knitting either. Hope I can stick to my plans, but we all know the saying, man plans and God laughs.

Here we go again

I got up very early this morning got myself ready for the day, thinking I had to work early. I get a call asking me if I'm working my early case this morning. Well, I still have a cold, is it advisable? My supervisor says she doesn't know and will call me back with an answer. Not even 15 minutes later she calls me and tells me not to go. She never called the other agency to find out for sure, just made that decision herself. Why? Because she thought of the consequences of my working with someone with a compromised immune system. With my having a cold. Not a big deal for someone rather healthy, huge deal if they aren't.

So I'm up with no where to go, lol. Should have gone back to bed, but I'm awake now. I'll be feeling it later. Plus, who knows what's going on tomorrow. My cold won't be gone by then. Just want a definite answer for this. I'm at the point of telling them to just find someone else and be done with it.

Finished my last chapter for now. Officially on break. Sort of. I still have info to gather and other stuff, but as for the reading and the class, taking a break from all that for now. Use this time as catch up time.

Was talking to hubby last night, around 8 or so. Told him I still had class to do. He had the nerve to act surprised that I was working on that so late. I asked him when he thought I did it. I don't learn by osmosis.

Had to wait yesterday because one of the kids is staying after school for extra help. This means she doesn't get here until around 4 pm. I'm usually on my way to drop them by then. This will make my day even later. My running has been ending between 5 and 6 pm. Now it will be later because of this staying late. Which will make it even harder to get to the places I need to be by 6 and 6:30. Oh, joy!

Theraputic entry

One thing I like about blogging, it clears my head. And believe me, my head is jumbled lately. Tuesday I get a call from work to do a hospice case. I agree to do it. I can fit it in before my other case. Makes for a longer day, but it's hospice and maybe I need to be out of the house more anyway. I'm thinking if I'm away more, than the things that bother me won't be so bothersome because they might not seem that big of a deal. Anyway, hubby's cousin left on Wednesday. I had to get the chicken and stuff from in town and drop his kids off at the other relatives house. Ok, one night, not a big deal.

Hubby calls me later that night to inform me that I have to drop the cousins kids off EVERYDAY until he gets back. Now, if the drive wasn't to far, I probably wouldn't mind, but we're talking an hour round trip. Yes, that bothers me. What also bothers me is that hubby just volunteered me without even asking me first. It also bothers me that the other relatives house, there are 4 drivers in the house, two college students. Every time I drop these kids, the college kids and the wife are there. And just why are they not coming back to get these kids????? Why am I doing this???????? Her husband drops them off at the school inthe morning because he has to go to the station to get the paperwork, and the school is on his way. Their house is not on my way. Coming home and going back is not on my way either. I asked hubby how I got to be the lucky one to do this and he said his cousin begged him. And he just volunteered me without asking me. But then again, this is a man who thinks I have nothing to do after work. And that I only work a few hours. I'd like to know who he thinks takes care of all the other stuff in the house, who does his errands, who does the station errands, how the money gets in the bank and how the bills get paid and who buys food and all that other stuff I do that he doesn't think I'm responsible for.

My days would be shorter if I didn't try to do other things after work, but why should I give up those things because I have a husband who doesn't think about all I really do. Maybe he just doesn't really care either. I've considered charging him for everything I do, problem is, he wouldn't be able to afford me. I would have thought that his thinking would change since when I was sick it took him and his cousin to do everything I do myself, but I was wrong. Short memory I guess.

I've considered quitting work, but that just makes hubby spaz and say he'll need to work more. More?? The man works 12 to 14 hours a day 7 days a week. How can he possible work more? I think he just says that so I won't quit. He doesn't have the time to work more, and if I quit we'd still be ok. Sometimes I think he does this because he thinks I need to be occupied, or maybe so he knows what I'm doing and where I'm at. I don't know, just wish I knew what was going through his head when he does this stuff to me so I can change his thinking.

Spent the weekend home with a nasty head cold. Called off from work today because I knew my lady wouldn't let me in sneezing and coughing and stuff. The other case is hospice, he already has a weakened immune system. I don't even know if they would want me there anyway, so I did, what I thought was right, and stayed home. This afternoon I get a nasty message about not working............. Yet, every year we do an in service, and every year we are told if we are sick to stay home. So stay home and deal with an attitude because you did. Just can't win. If I knew I could get another job in about a week, I'd quit. I'm that tired of it all.

The only good news is I'm done with school until January. I really, really need the break!

Been thinking

I know thinking can be dangerous, but in my case I've come to some decisions, lol. I've decided to take a break from classes. I'm going to finish the chapter I'm in, but after that, hopefully before Thanksgiving, I'm taking a break until after the new year. This way I can enjoy the holidays with out the stress of class and I really have been pushing it since July, so I think a break is needed. This means I won't graduate in December like I planned, but on the other hand, when I come back I have one more chapter, a final, and the thesis. The thesis is on the last chapter anyway, so I figure I have months to really concentrate on it. And I'm taking a break over the summer to. Going to try to follow more of a going to a college schedule. I feel good about this so it must be the right decision.

This is the time I year that I really enjoy. All the preparations for the holidays and the time with family. I also really get into the knitting at this time because things are usually gifts for someone. Don't think anyone in the house this year is getting anything knitted from me. None of them wear what I make, so why waste my time.

It really doesn't feel like November outside. Still in the upper 50's. Started my holiday shopping to. I'm determined this year not to be out in the stores shopping after thanksgiving. I have hubby's list and the youngest list. Only one thing for the oldest. I'm clueless for him this year. I've decided we are cutting way back this year anyway, only a few things. The older they get the more expensive the things get!! If they get a few things they really like they should appreciate what they get.

Ok, break times over. Time to hit the books for a few hours, lol!

Did everyone remember to change their clocks back?

Woke up yesterday with a migraine. Took something in time so it wasn't as bad as it could have been, but enough to put me down for most of the day. There have been so many fronts moving through with this crazy weather, I'm not surprised. Was up and around by the end of the day. Of course! Hubby called a few times while he was at work to make sure I was feeling better.

I'm up and ready for church this morning. Was up earlier than normal, but stayed in bed until the alarm went off. I forgot that the alarm is set ahead by 30 minutes, so I was still up early. Every things done and they boys are ready to. Normally, we are all still scrambling at this time. My eyes are feeling tired, but other than that, I feel pretty good. Sometimes, I think the migraines are my body's way of telling me to slow down. I'm trying to adopt the there's always tomorrow attitude. Not working so well for me.

Hubby told me one day last week that his cousins wife in Canada was going to have a baby around December. He wanted me to make some things and send them off at that time. I found out Saturday morning that she had the baby already. It's a girl. Well at least I know what kinds of things I can make for her. I've already started a blanket. I chose green and going to put a crocheted pink border around it. Decided on the pink after I knew what she had. Originally, I was going to make the border yellow. Since I had so much fun at knitting last week, I decided that I have to make time for this again. It's the break from my life that I need. Not to mention I get to socialize with all females. If you live in a house of all males, you know what I mean. A friend of mine brought in a knitting book and in it is a pattern for leg warmers for a baby. So cute. I borrowed the book to make a copy so I can make a pair. I didn't realize just how much I miss knitting, but I do.

Instead of class occupying my time 5 days a week, I'm going to cut it down to 3. I need the time away and I can get some projects going. I've been working on a shawl with a drop stitch in it. I wasn't sure about it at first and was going to not do the drop stitch, but now that it's done, I have to say I really like it. I have to redo the bound off edge, it's to tight, bit I think I can fix it. The problem is going to be blocking it. It's 60" long and I have no place to just wet it, pin it, and let it dry. I'm thinking of putting it on the ironing board, and doing section by section, but that will take a long time. When it's all done I think I'm going to give it to hubby's sister. Have to remember to take pics because I probably won't be doing another one like it anytime soon, if every. Purposely pulling stitches out of knitting and making holes just goes against everything you've been taught as a knitter, lol!

Hubby wants to hit wally world today after church. I hope he doesn't want to spend hours in that store because I'm just not up to it today! In and out of stores is what I like. Of course, I have a yarn shopping trip planned after work tomorrow, but it's for yarn, lol! Then needle shopping online so no over spending. Like I need more yarn. If hubby had any clue as to just how much yarn I really have he wouldn't let me near a yarn store in years, lol!