Here we go again

I got up very early this morning got myself ready for the day, thinking I had to work early. I get a call asking me if I'm working my early case this morning. Well, I still have a cold, is it advisable? My supervisor says she doesn't know and will call me back with an answer. Not even 15 minutes later she calls me and tells me not to go. She never called the other agency to find out for sure, just made that decision herself. Why? Because she thought of the consequences of my working with someone with a compromised immune system. With my having a cold. Not a big deal for someone rather healthy, huge deal if they aren't.

So I'm up with no where to go, lol. Should have gone back to bed, but I'm awake now. I'll be feeling it later. Plus, who knows what's going on tomorrow. My cold won't be gone by then. Just want a definite answer for this. I'm at the point of telling them to just find someone else and be done with it.

Finished my last chapter for now. Officially on break. Sort of. I still have info to gather and other stuff, but as for the reading and the class, taking a break from all that for now. Use this time as catch up time.

Was talking to hubby last night, around 8 or so. Told him I still had class to do. He had the nerve to act surprised that I was working on that so late. I asked him when he thought I did it. I don't learn by osmosis.

Had to wait yesterday because one of the kids is staying after school for extra help. This means she doesn't get here until around 4 pm. I'm usually on my way to drop them by then. This will make my day even later. My running has been ending between 5 and 6 pm. Now it will be later because of this staying late. Which will make it even harder to get to the places I need to be by 6 and 6:30. Oh, joy!

Theraputic entry

One thing I like about blogging, it clears my head. And believe me, my head is jumbled lately. Tuesday I get a call from work to do a hospice case. I agree to do it. I can fit it in before my other case. Makes for a longer day, but it's hospice and maybe I need to be out of the house more anyway. I'm thinking if I'm away more, than the things that bother me won't be so bothersome because they might not seem that big of a deal. Anyway, hubby's cousin left on Wednesday. I had to get the chicken and stuff from in town and drop his kids off at the other relatives house. Ok, one night, not a big deal.

Hubby calls me later that night to inform me that I have to drop the cousins kids off EVERYDAY until he gets back. Now, if the drive wasn't to far, I probably wouldn't mind, but we're talking an hour round trip. Yes, that bothers me. What also bothers me is that hubby just volunteered me without even asking me first. It also bothers me that the other relatives house, there are 4 drivers in the house, two college students. Every time I drop these kids, the college kids and the wife are there. And just why are they not coming back to get these kids????? Why am I doing this???????? Her husband drops them off at the school inthe morning because he has to go to the station to get the paperwork, and the school is on his way. Their house is not on my way. Coming home and going back is not on my way either. I asked hubby how I got to be the lucky one to do this and he said his cousin begged him. And he just volunteered me without asking me. But then again, this is a man who thinks I have nothing to do after work. And that I only work a few hours. I'd like to know who he thinks takes care of all the other stuff in the house, who does his errands, who does the station errands, how the money gets in the bank and how the bills get paid and who buys food and all that other stuff I do that he doesn't think I'm responsible for.

My days would be shorter if I didn't try to do other things after work, but why should I give up those things because I have a husband who doesn't think about all I really do. Maybe he just doesn't really care either. I've considered charging him for everything I do, problem is, he wouldn't be able to afford me. I would have thought that his thinking would change since when I was sick it took him and his cousin to do everything I do myself, but I was wrong. Short memory I guess.

I've considered quitting work, but that just makes hubby spaz and say he'll need to work more. More?? The man works 12 to 14 hours a day 7 days a week. How can he possible work more? I think he just says that so I won't quit. He doesn't have the time to work more, and if I quit we'd still be ok. Sometimes I think he does this because he thinks I need to be occupied, or maybe so he knows what I'm doing and where I'm at. I don't know, just wish I knew what was going through his head when he does this stuff to me so I can change his thinking.

Spent the weekend home with a nasty head cold. Called off from work today because I knew my lady wouldn't let me in sneezing and coughing and stuff. The other case is hospice, he already has a weakened immune system. I don't even know if they would want me there anyway, so I did, what I thought was right, and stayed home. This afternoon I get a nasty message about not working............. Yet, every year we do an in service, and every year we are told if we are sick to stay home. So stay home and deal with an attitude because you did. Just can't win. If I knew I could get another job in about a week, I'd quit. I'm that tired of it all.

The only good news is I'm done with school until January. I really, really need the break!

Been thinking

I know thinking can be dangerous, but in my case I've come to some decisions, lol. I've decided to take a break from classes. I'm going to finish the chapter I'm in, but after that, hopefully before Thanksgiving, I'm taking a break until after the new year. This way I can enjoy the holidays with out the stress of class and I really have been pushing it since July, so I think a break is needed. This means I won't graduate in December like I planned, but on the other hand, when I come back I have one more chapter, a final, and the thesis. The thesis is on the last chapter anyway, so I figure I have months to really concentrate on it. And I'm taking a break over the summer to. Going to try to follow more of a going to a college schedule. I feel good about this so it must be the right decision.

This is the time I year that I really enjoy. All the preparations for the holidays and the time with family. I also really get into the knitting at this time because things are usually gifts for someone. Don't think anyone in the house this year is getting anything knitted from me. None of them wear what I make, so why waste my time.

It really doesn't feel like November outside. Still in the upper 50's. Started my holiday shopping to. I'm determined this year not to be out in the stores shopping after thanksgiving. I have hubby's list and the youngest list. Only one thing for the oldest. I'm clueless for him this year. I've decided we are cutting way back this year anyway, only a few things. The older they get the more expensive the things get!! If they get a few things they really like they should appreciate what they get.

Ok, break times over. Time to hit the books for a few hours, lol!

Did everyone remember to change their clocks back?

Woke up yesterday with a migraine. Took something in time so it wasn't as bad as it could have been, but enough to put me down for most of the day. There have been so many fronts moving through with this crazy weather, I'm not surprised. Was up and around by the end of the day. Of course! Hubby called a few times while he was at work to make sure I was feeling better.

I'm up and ready for church this morning. Was up earlier than normal, but stayed in bed until the alarm went off. I forgot that the alarm is set ahead by 30 minutes, so I was still up early. Every things done and they boys are ready to. Normally, we are all still scrambling at this time. My eyes are feeling tired, but other than that, I feel pretty good. Sometimes, I think the migraines are my body's way of telling me to slow down. I'm trying to adopt the there's always tomorrow attitude. Not working so well for me.

Hubby told me one day last week that his cousins wife in Canada was going to have a baby around December. He wanted me to make some things and send them off at that time. I found out Saturday morning that she had the baby already. It's a girl. Well at least I know what kinds of things I can make for her. I've already started a blanket. I chose green and going to put a crocheted pink border around it. Decided on the pink after I knew what she had. Originally, I was going to make the border yellow. Since I had so much fun at knitting last week, I decided that I have to make time for this again. It's the break from my life that I need. Not to mention I get to socialize with all females. If you live in a house of all males, you know what I mean. A friend of mine brought in a knitting book and in it is a pattern for leg warmers for a baby. So cute. I borrowed the book to make a copy so I can make a pair. I didn't realize just how much I miss knitting, but I do.

Instead of class occupying my time 5 days a week, I'm going to cut it down to 3. I need the time away and I can get some projects going. I've been working on a shawl with a drop stitch in it. I wasn't sure about it at first and was going to not do the drop stitch, but now that it's done, I have to say I really like it. I have to redo the bound off edge, it's to tight, bit I think I can fix it. The problem is going to be blocking it. It's 60" long and I have no place to just wet it, pin it, and let it dry. I'm thinking of putting it on the ironing board, and doing section by section, but that will take a long time. When it's all done I think I'm going to give it to hubby's sister. Have to remember to take pics because I probably won't be doing another one like it anytime soon, if every. Purposely pulling stitches out of knitting and making holes just goes against everything you've been taught as a knitter, lol!

Hubby wants to hit wally world today after church. I hope he doesn't want to spend hours in that store because I'm just not up to it today! In and out of stores is what I like. Of course, I have a yarn shopping trip planned after work tomorrow, but it's for yarn, lol! Then needle shopping online so no over spending. Like I need more yarn. If hubby had any clue as to just how much yarn I really have he wouldn't let me near a yarn store in years, lol!

I need a vacation!!!!!!!!!!

All week I've been baking for the youngest craft fair the senior class has every year. Have not cracked a book because this is occupying my time so.

Left a note for the youngest to make his cupcakes when he got home today because he's bringing them to school on Friday for halloween. He's also making cookies and cutting the brownies we made last night. Brownies had to cool while we went to Bible study last night. When I got home I just called it a night. It was a nasty day. Rained all day and damp and raw out. I did my share of running in and out of the rain all day yesterday. Every time I came in I was wet. By the time I got home I was just cold. Had a hard time getting warm.

So today is the last day to get all this stuff together for the weekend. I'm telling the youngest how he can get all this stuff on the bus and he looks at me and says; "Mom, the craft fair isn't this weekend. It's next weekend."

He's right, it's next weekend. I'm really losing it, lol!!

Whole bunch of nothing

Three day weekend was nice, just not long enough, lol! Should consider taking more of those in the future. Thought we were going to do a whole lot of nothing on Sunday, my plans anyway, but hubby instead wanted to go shopping at wally world. Well, we left the house around 3 pm and got home about 8 pm. Don't know what time we went in wally world, it was still light outside, by the time we got out it was dark! Geez!!!! Hubby covered every inch of this store. I found things I haven't been able to find before, lol!! By the time we hit the automotive section I was ready to go. Hubby just kept going up and down the isles. sigh..............

Since his cousin is leaving in a week or two for India hubby did a little shopping for his relatives. Not a whole lot. So glad for that. He said he would do the real shopping for later when he goes in a few months. Oh, joy! Gonna be left alone during the winter. Again!!

Spent most of Saturday working on class. Haven't touched the books since. Monday ended up being an errand day. The youngest senior class is holding their craft fair and bake sale this weekend, so yesterday after work I spent baking. Have one more thing to donate which he will make tomorrow while I go knit. Then he decides to make halloween cupcakes for Friday so he will do that to. I'm not, I have more than enough to do.

Hubby was looking for some baby items to send to India. He remembered my knitted baby things and went rooting through that. Then had the nerve to tell me a relative is expecting in Canada and he wants to send stuff in December. He gave me an order of a blanket, some hats and some booties. Gee, thanks!! Haven't looked for anything yet, but will over the weekend. It's not looking like hubby's vest is going to get done anytime soon. I wanted to have it done by the winter for him. Maybe next winter, lol!

I can't believe November will be here soon. Seems like once August ffiinnaalllyyy finished, the months have been flying by. I've thought about Christmas shopping. Hubby will be easy this year, it's the boys who will be a problem. The one thing I wanted to do I can't do :( That would have been so easy.....................

Well, the state has suspended the mandatory h1n1 vaccinations because there aren't enough vaccines. Yes!!!!!!!!!!!! Now, hopefully when the vaccines are more plentiful, hopefully they won't change their minds or we will be going through this process all over again.

Damp, rainy, and miserable

My mood is fast becoming like the weather today, lol. Kids are giving me a hard time this morning and I'm just not in the mood for it. Really wanted to stay in bed and veg, but had to get my hair trimmed, so up I went. I like the way she did it this time, seemed like I was in and out in no time to.

Anyway, the youngest senior pics have been sitting on my desk for a few weeks and I can no longer ignore them. I have to order by the end of next weekend. I've glanced at them and I, as much as I hate to say this, I don't like any of them. I'm just not happy with them. Period. Last year we went to the photographer that the school uses and did the pics. We made an appt, did the changes of clothes thing and I really liked the poses, the pics and the photographer. I was happy with them. The oldest went along with what I wanted.
Even the prices weren't to bad.

This year the youngest didn't want to do all that. Originally, what he told me was he just wanted to take a pic here at home and submit it for the yearbook. Well, ok, if that's what you really want, then I will order the school pictures. Didn't get the school pics for the oldest last year, didn't see the need.

So that was the agreement. I pick the package I want for the youngest for his school pics and tell him he needs to start thinking about his senior pic. The day of the school pics he never gives the money for the pics. HE decided he didn't want them! GGGRRRRRRR!! He then said his teachers told him to use the other photographer the school is using for senior pics because there's more options available. Well. you pay for options, ya know. All I really want is one 8x10 and some wallets. That's it. I don't give a lot of pictures out and my mother recently sent all the school pics of the boys I gave to her over the years, back to me so why bother giving her anything. We haven't spoken since June and she sent the pics even before we stopped talking. Fine, whatever.

Now the deadline for the senior pics is the end of the month and I have to do something. He took 4 poses and I really don't like anything. One pose I absolutely hate. The others are ifie. Not only that I have to spend more money than I did last year, and on something I'm not happy with. There's no time to make any changes. I told the youngest, if he would have done what I wanted in the first place he wouldn't be having a problem with me. Now, I'm stuck on spending money on something I don't like or want.

He doesn't see the need for senior pics anyway. He doesn't understand that this is the last set of pics I'll ever get of him while in school. So it's a butt heads day with the youngest. I showed hubby the prices of the pic pkgs, which is really cheaper, since ordering just what I want will cost close to $100.00. Can't see paying that when for a few dollars more I can get more. Even though I don't want it. Hubby just told me to order what I wanted. I know he wasn't paying much attention to me because I told him I wanted the $600.00 pkg and he said ok! I'll wait until tomorrow and sit down with him when I have his full attention. That will give me time to stop growling about these pics and just get it over and done with.

The rest of the day I have to spend getting caught up with class. Did some last night, but it was my stopping time before I knew it, so the rest is for today and Monday. I've been stopping class work at 9 pm. So far, so good. If I go later than that I seem to spend the night thinking about things and not getting much sleep. Stopping and watching tv and knitting for a while seems to clear my head and relax me.

Gonna have some lunch, close the door on the family and see how much I can get accomplished today, lol.