Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Finally, some rain

For days now there has been a chance of rain, but I've yet to see it. Then last night, as promised, it finally rained. I'm glad because I don't have to go out and water the veggie garden, the herb garden and all the window boxes and hanging planters. Not to mention the flower beds because I put some seeds in there to, lol. I don't know what got into us this year, but we just bought flowers and veggies and herbs like crazy. So much for a smaller veggie garden this year. I do have to say though, hubby did plant everything in rows so it will be a little easier when I have to go in there and pick stuff. I'm hoping anyway.

Not much else has been going on lately. The boys start their finals on Thursday and then they only have maybe 2 more days of school before they are done for the year. I don't remember having this much time off when I was in high school. We had to stay the whole day when we had final exams. I'm just not ready for them to be home and all the time, lol. Little do they know hubby has a whole list of things he's going to be expecting them to do. Both of them, lol. The youngest always has a way of getting out of work around the house. Hubby's gotten wise to him and plans on making him work all summer. It will be good for them.

Monday, June 8, 2009

New beginnings

I guess everyone has a breaking point. A zero tolerance level. Well, I think I've reached mine. Correction, I know I've reached mine. This has been on my mind for a while, but I've always pushed it to the back of my mind and that was where it stayed. Always, I'll deal with it when I have time kind of thing.

Lately, I've noticed on some days that I have to eat every few hours. If not, I get shaky, and start to sweat. I eat and I feel much better. I am well aware of what this is an indication of and I absolutely refuse to ignore the signs and let this become a full blown disease. This is something I can control and will control. I won't let this get out of hand, because now is the time to stop it before I can't.

I'm a total book freak. I love books. I would devote an entire room to books and make it my mini library. I have quite a few books on natural cures, natural remedies, and herbs. Problem is, I very rarely crack the cover after I get them. They just sit on the shelf gathering dust. Or getting buried behind other books because it seems lately that I have no more room on my bookcases. Since today was a day I had no plans to really do anything, I decided to take a look at what I have and do some informative reading. I spent quite a bit of time online yesterday looking for allergy remedies. How I ended up on facebook, I have no idea, lol. Must have just been wandering. Anyway, I found some really good sites and some, hopefully, useful advice. I was talking to one person who also suggested that I take a look at the foods I eat, that maybe some food I eat is what's causing the pain in my leg. She suggested pineapple. I had heard this before and also read that yesterday to. For the past week I've been putting local honey in my tea in the morning. I have noticed a slight difference in my allergies. My eyes aren't pasted shut or swollen in the mornings, and my lungs feel better. I used to wake up in the morning and take a deep breath and my lungs would just hurt. I haven't felt that in the past few days. I'm still sneezing and coughing and my eyes will itch occasionally, but the itch isn't so bad that I can't ignore it. For me that's an improvement. I was also out on a windy day and didn't react like I normally would. That was the real test for me. Dry windy days are miserable allergy days for me. It's a slight relief, but I'll take it.

I had bought a new allergy med, over the counter that I was going to start taking. I should have looked up the side effects before I bought it, but I didn't. What I read about the side effects scared me enough that I won't be taking it or giving it to my youngest. I went online looking specifically for the side effects because they weren't listed on the box. I thought that was odd. Now I know why. I was telling hubby what my plans are and he's all for it. He has recently decided to stop eating meat. He thinks that's why he's gaining weight. It's not. Since he's been back from India he promised his father that he would give up the whiskey. For the most part he has, except instead of whiskey every night, he drinks beer. I think the beer puts more weight on him than the whiskey, but his wanting to eat better will only help me to. I have to do a little more research on what I need to be eating in place of the meat, but meat and sugar are out. By no sugar I mean not adding any extra sugar. I can't use any of the sugar substitutes, including splenda, because they give me leg pain. I am switching to the cane sugar though. I was reading the sugar can play a huge role in allergies.

Then, of course, there's my weight. I really do need to lose weight and since I'm at that age where I gain in my middle first, that will be the first place the weight will leave. At least the last time I got serious about weight loss, that was the first place I noticed was getting smaller. And with that comes better health, lower blood pressure, and stability in my blood sugar. Why would I not want that??

Hubby and I talk about getting out and walking, but have yet to do it. Our schedules are so off I'm not sure if we will ever be able to walk together. I used to get up every morning and walk for 30 to 45 minutes, before breakfast. Now I'm just lazy about it. I did walk the perimeter of wally world today. That took me a good 15 minutes. I had to go in there for something for myself and my friend. Had I known that they wouldn't have what my friend needed I would have just walked around once. Up and down every single toy isle, at least 3 times before I just gave up. At first I went kind of fast, but as I wasn't finding what she wanted, I slowed down and actually stopped to really look. But, it was cool in there, for a change. Either that or my prayer to keep me cool in the store was answered, lol. I don't know why but when I go shopping, some stores I just practically run in there, and have to remind myself to slow down and just walk and look. Excess anxiety, I guess.

Back to work tomorrow. UGH! I really don't want to. It's been so nice just doing whatever. I feel so relaxed right now. But, as of now, I don't have anything new at the end of the month, so I just might get a nice relaxing break. I think I need it, lol.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Beautiful day

Such a nice day here today. This whole week has been rather cloudy, and yesterday and today have been sunny and just really nice. I did all my errands yesterday so I could stay home most of today. It feels good to come home put on sloppy clothes and just do nothing knowing there is really no place I have to be.

We went to see hubby's uncle yesterday. Well, I didn't but hubby and uncles friend did. Lets just day this experience is something I hope I don't ever have to go through with anyone close to me. Morning visiting hours are from 9 to 11 am. We had to be up by 6:30 and ready to walk out the door by 7:30 to meet the friend at 8:30 to register to see the uncle by 9 am. It takes us an hour to get to that area, then another 20 minutes to the place. I think the actual visiting time is only about 30 minutes, by the time they go through their thing.

At first hubby's uncle was upset that he came to see him. Can you believe it? Hubby asked him why he didn't contact anyone and his excuse was he doesn't have access to a phone. I'm sure he can use a pay phone to call. Someone. Then he tells hubby to tell his family where he is ( like hubby didn't already) and that he's ok. We still aren't sure of the real reason why he's locked up. They story he told hubby is almost the same story he told the lawyer when he was arrested for drinking and driving the first time. I'm sorry, but I really don't believe the cops just go out looking for people. I think you have to do something to get their attention. He swears he wasn't drinking this time. I don't know. He was telling hubby that on Tuesday they are moving him to another place where he has to go to school and can maybe work during the day, after he does this schooling for 2 months. Now, I'm not sure, but I'm thinking he must have to take a class about drinking and driving. I know in this state that if you are caught, you have to before you can get your licence back. Hubby did say his licence is probably gone for a long time now and that he has court next month. I'm still thinking he violated his probation somehow and that's why he's in jail now. Then before hubby leaves he tells hubby to come and see him every week. He's bored. Well, if he would have behaved himself, he wouldn't be in this situation right now and he wouldn't be bored. Hubby thinks maybe every other week or so. This man just doesn't realize how hard this is to do this. Hubby closes the station at 2:30 - 3:00 am. Sleeps for a few hours, then has to get up and travel over an hour, just for a 30 minute visit?? By the time we get home it's close to noon and hubby has to be at work again at 2:30. It's hard on him. I've noticed since he's been back, he's not as energetic as he used to be. The man's slowing down, and he's always so tired. Some days he worries me.

Well, I'm going to go lazy outside on the swing and maybe think about looking through my fabric stash to see what I have for my dress. I also have tons of beads. Maybe I'll see what I have and work on some earrings or a necklace or something.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Blue mood for a Friday

Usually come Friday I'm ecstatic. Not this Friday. Work went fast, came home and managed to get on hubby's nerves. Not intentionally. I realize now hubby is stressed over his uncle being in jail. Oh well, not a lot you can do about it. I will know tonight if he's going tomorrow or not. He said something about having to get permission or something to come see his uncle. I don't know. I'm clueless when it comes to this kind of stuff. So after hubby jumped on me I just went off and started my house cleaning. Didn't say a word. He knew I was upset, but he's thinking for the wrong reasons. He came back in the house and asked me if I wanted him to ask someone to take him to see his uncle. Totally clueless! Not even close to the reason why I'm upset. I might pay him a visit later, in person, and tell him why I'm upset.

To make myself feel better I took myself shopping. Why is it when you want to buy something, you can't find anything?? I did go and get the stuff for the oldest graduation party. So glad I went to dollar tree first. They had tons of stuff, everything I needed. I was going to try walmart first, but then I remembered how hot walmart always is so dollar tree it was. Of course, I also decided to look for a dress for his graduation. I want something made out of cotton, or at least something that will be cool. No such luck, everything knit or polyester or some other kind of hot, hot fabric. I saw a lot of things that were nice, but I figured if I'm buying a new dress, I at least want to wear it to church to. Everything, and I mean everything, was just cut way to low for church. I have a no cleavage rule for things I wear to church. I did venture into walmart anyway. Boy was it hot in there! I was sweating just standing in the checkout line! The temp is only about 70 here today and cloudy. But, I did find a melon colored knit dress I can wear for his party. Unless it's humid that day. I tried it on and it fits great. Who would have thought. I was in Fashion Bug and I picked up some cute tops. They were marked down and buying them made me feel better. I grabbed the two of them because they were cotton and the fit is really cute. As for the graduation dress, well, I'm thinking I'm going to have to make myself something. One thing I noticed when trying on dresses. They just never fit right. If it fits nice in one place, it gaps in another. UGH! If I make it myself, at least it will fit in all the right places. I found a pattern, now just have to make sure I have fabric.

So my weekend is open. I don't have anything really planned, except to get the invitations done. That I can do tonight. Maybe it will be nice to stay home on a weekend for a change.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Feeling bombarded

The oldest came home today with all the info for graduation. Wow, that's a lot! So many things going on in the next few weeks, I felt exhausted just reading the papers, lol. One thing I'm thankful for is that he actually gave me the paper the day he got it, not weeks after. He's been known to do that. The actual last day of school is on the 15th. From then until the 25 it's exams and regents. The oldest only has two days of exams and the youngest one day. The oldest does have to be in school for a few hours on the 25th, and 26th for graduation things. Since my parents decided not to come for the oldest's graduation, I think I will only be taking the 25th and 26th off. If I'm around I can better stay on top of things if I catch him as he walks in the door. Since we are only getting 6 tickets for graduation, we decided to have a party for all the people we want to invite but don't have tickets for. I'm thinking of having the party on Sunday afternoon. It will give me a chance to catch my breath a little. I'll take the weekend to make plans and get invitations together and out.

Speaking of the weekend. Hubby has an uncle, the one who lived with us for a while. For the past 2 weeks his family, in India, has been calling hubby because no one has heard from this guy. He was working for the family but, something happened and he got let go. His wife refuses to take him back. The whole family, except hubby, is mad at him again and wants nothing to do with him. This is a real sore spot between hubby and me because I am siding with his family on this one. Hubby, however, will bend over backwards to do what he can for him. So, last week hubby wanted to go to the town he was living in and see if he could find someone who might know where he is. His family seemed to think he was in the hospital. So, instead of searching a town, I called the hospital in the town he was living in to see if he was there. He's not. While this guy was living with us he was going to court for a dwi and had lost his license. He was given probation and a fine. About 5 months later he get his licence back. Hubby and I both thought maybe he was in jail. I told hubby that since he was on probation and if he got caught drunk driving again, he would go right to jail to do the time. Well, we have a friend who works for corrections so hubby asked him to check if he was there. The friend checked 3 jails and his name didn't come up. So, again hubby wants to search this town to see if he can find his guy. I got the number of the place where he was working and hubby called and talked to the guy he worked with. He is in jail. He didn't want anyone to know where he was, that was why this guy didn't contact anyone. Now hubby wants to go this weekend to see him. Personal feelings for this guy aside, I think hubby should just stay home and get his sleep. If this guy wanted hubby, or anyone for that matter to visit him, he would have told his friend who to contact. He didn't. This will be another day, if we go, of driving in circles not knowing where we are going. I don't know the area and neither does hubby and he's not known for getting good directions. I want hubby to get as much info as possible before we go. Nothing like going and finding out visiting hours are over. I'm so not looking forward to the weekend and making this trip. But, the good thing about this is we finally know where he is. I don't think it was right of him to put his parents through all this, or anyone else. But, whenever anyone has a problem, they always drop it at hubby's feet to take care of for them. It gets old after a while.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Dragging like it's a Monday

Bed was my friend this morning. I did not want to get out of it. Especially to go to work, lol. Had a very hard time falling asleep last night, was way to late when I finally did. Then, of course, hubby crawls in and, snore, man all night long!! He either was really tired or the pollen is starting to get to him to. I'm going to benadryl his butt tonight if he starts again. When I finally got out of bed, my eyes were all puffy and icky. I did the caffeine thing this morning, instead of a pill because I never would have gotten anything done at work otherwise. Went outside to get in my car and it's covered in pollen. So, I decided to give myself a break and turned the air on to drive to work. I normally don't do this, but I was sniffling and still sneezing when I left. I wanted to hold my breath as I was walking outside, lol.

Yesterday when we were in town I noticed the health food store is finally open. About, probably 2 years ago it caught fire and has been closed since. There were signs in the front saying it was going to open soon, but after a while you just get used to seeing them. If I go over the weekend that will give me time to check in my herbal book about what to use for allergies. I'm already at my wits end, but not desperate enough to use what the doc gave me. I know, why put myself through all that if I don't have to. I'm one of those people who if I have to take a med for something, I prefer the older stuff. Stuff that's been around for ages. Supposedly, the newer stuff works faster and is better, but, I just don't feel the newer stuff has been tested well enough. Strange view from someone who works in the health care field. Way to many times, recalls on meds come out after they have been on the market for a while because after years of use, the effects of people using them are known. I had gone to the doc, years ago, and was given a new med for my allergies. Didn't trust it so I didn't take it. About a year after that, it was pulled from the market because of it causing heart attacks in people who were using it. That just reinforced my belief that older is usually better.

Work was uneventful. I'm actually glad, because I was tired. Today I was glad the windows were all closed. It's in the mid 70's here, but I needed the relief this morning. The woman who does the scheduling called me to confirm my last day there. She still doesn't have anything else for me. That scares me, probably because I can't remember the last time I didn't work. Jobs in my area are scarce, even the boys can't find one. I keep telling myself to put in in God's hands because the right job will come along at the right time. I just don't know how hubby is going to handle my not working for a while if it comes down to that.

I can't believe it's already June. The boys are basically done on the 15th. They have to go back and take a few exams, but for the most part, the will be home all the time after that. The oldest graduates this year. I can't believe it. I've been thinking about trying to get my parents here for his graduation. Of course, that's a lot of planning on my part. Hubby's ok with it. I figured he would be, he doesn't have to make any of the trips, I do. I called them and left them a message about it, but haven't heard back from them yet. I need to know by Friday so I can get the time off. I've decided if I do this that I'm not going to rush it. It's a 7 hour drive each way, so one day to get there and one day to get back. But, I need to be back in time to make sure the oldest has everything he might need. The day before graduation is the senior breakfast and picnic. Graduation in on a Saturday, so I was thinking of driving back the Monday after and coming back home on Tuesday. Or maybe Wednesday, since I might not have a steady job after that. I'm willing to sit through the summer, but I definitely want something by September. Plus I'll be starting my class again in September. Hopefully, I'll be done by this time next year, and then I can go on from there.

Well, I need to catch up on some journals. Haven't been to many at all lately. Then I have some reading to do. We have been going through the book of Genesis in Bible study. We've been working on it for 3 weeks now and have only done the first two verses in chapter one. But, it's interesting and through. I just really wish hubby could be there. He would get so much out of it.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Don't know where the time has gone

It seems I manage to make it on here weekly lately. Hubby's home, the weather is nice, and things are busy. When I get home from work, after sitting inside, the last thing I want to do is stay in my house. I like to get outside when the weather is nice. Not that it's any good for my allergies. I suffer for it some days. Yesterday ended up being nice and cool in the afternoon after a brief thunderstorm. It pushed the humidity out and got nice and very windy! A really cool wind, lol. I know, I was outside in it. But, my allergies weren't bothering me so I thought I would be ok. Well, today is another story. I feel like crap right now. It seems like they snuck up on me over night. I still have some singular the doc gave me from last year, but I'm not suffering enough to start taking it. I hate the fact that I have to take this every day until the first killing frost. So, I'm going to go and get some local honey, and try that. I use honey in my tea every morning anyway. I don't expect to have any relief this year, but maybe next, since it has to build up over time, but it's better than taking something that has a lot of side effects that I, quite honestly, just don't want to deal with. And, it can make you sleepy. So, I can take that everyday and still walk around in an allergy haze. I've tried the otc non drowsy allergy meds. And I don't get sleepy, not even at bed time. I end up having to take something to make me sleep. Not an option for me either.

Saturday night the youngest brought in flowers for me. I don't know what they were, except they were very fragrant. Set my allergies right off. Since he put them on the kitchen table, I held my breath and took them outside before church set them on the picnic table, lol. But, I had to breathe and it was enough to set my allergies off. Since we were headed out the door to church, I had to stop at a store to get some benadryl. I had to take it on the way to church. Well, I was in a fog anyway from all the sneezing. I really should have just stayed home and went back to sleep, but I didn't. Yesterday was a nice day, comfortable temp, with high humidity. We got to church and they had the heat on in the church! Could not believe it. I thought maybe just to take the chill off from the night, but it stayed on for the whole service. The boys were fanning themselves, because they were hot. Me, I was comfortable, I wore flip flops and a sleeveless top. Because I know better! Anyway, the boys were concerned because I was sneezing and sniffling and coughing and what not. They carried all my stuff except my car keys. I had them. Service is over and I'm searching through my purse for my car keys. No keys. I'm in a haze, so I could have done anything with them. The youngest goes and looks in the car thinking I might have left them in there. Nothing. I'm almost positive I carried them in with me. Could I have dropped them? Can't remember what I did with them. So, finally, I think maybe they are on the floor. I stand up and there they are, behind the cushion where I was sitting, lol. So, it's going to be that kind of day.

Get home after church and decide I really need to have a nap so this groggy feeling will leave. I lay down in the bed and close the bedroom door because I just want quiet. I very rarely close the bedroom door. So, after a while, I hear hubby trying to open the door. He can't get it open. That's odd, did I lock it? I turn the knob, and as I'm turning and pulling, I find the knob in my hand, lol. Ask hubby if he's still on the other side, because I have the door knob in my hand and can't open the door. He still can't open the door either. So, I crawl out our bedroom window, since I'm panicking that I'm locked in. Our house is all one floor, with the deck being right outside our bedroom window. I come around the house and when I get inside, there's hubby and the oldest, laughing hysterically, because they think I'm still inside the bedroom, lol. They ended up having to take the whole doorknob off to open the door. Hubby seems to think maybe the knob on that side was loose since I like to hang stuff on the knob. Maybe, I don't know. They put the knob back on and it's working fine. Don't know what happened. Guess it was just that kind of day, lol!

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I'm a married mother of 2 teenage boys who lives in Upstate New York.